Whips and Chains

Topics change a lot when you are chatting.  The last time I was in chat we talked about the best way to style your hair...should be down or in a pony tail.

 We decided it depended on the activity. The hair topic brought us to the "whip it good" saying which of course moved to whips and chains excite me, like in the song.  This was a colorful dialog. 

We also brought up that there should be a wine icon because sometimes you just want wine over beer.  Which led us to talking about St. Patrick's Day and tapping kegs with straws.  I am not much of a drinker so I couldn't contribute too much to this topic.  I am sure there were more things but these are the ones that stick out.

Connection

I have been very busy lately but it seems when I get a chance I go in search of some no-strings-attached chatting.  I find myself staying for only a short time but it is a nice way to connect with people. 

I don't want to really share anything about myself because this type of chatting has nothing to do with making a personal connection with someone.  I just want to have a conversation about something, anything, or everything random.  It is like my interactive book.

I like how you have the option to stay or go whenever you like.  You can change the subject and for the most part you will have someone respond to your randomness.

 I also like re-connecting with people that I have talked to over the past years but that is not the reason I go to chat.  I am not looking for a past, just passing the time.  If you ever see me there, just start up a conversation...in public please.

Bottoms Up!

Everyone should have a pair of faithful, trusty jeans.  They are always there when I need them, ready to take the stress out of any situation as they relax my sensibilities. 

The hug my hips and I know I can kick back and put my feet up and my jeans will only encourage my comfortable mood.

 I know that when I am having a fashion emergency, I can always count on them, like a trusted friend. 

I hope you have a pair of trusty jeans in your life.

Responsibility

I wish I could change things for you.  I wish I could take the hurt away, but I cannot.  I can only take responsibility for my actions.  I can not blame the one who bullied me but only blame myself for letting those words touch me so completely.  I cannot be responsible for you either.

 I do not make you mad, happy, angry or joyous, only you can do that.  I am sorry for misunderstandings but I have do nothing to be ashamed of...for once, I have just used my words and reached out to talk others.  I have made no commitments only conversations.  I am not looking for more than that here.  These are my words and I have said that all along.  I am not looking to find you here.  

Pillow Fights and PJ's

I have been a little under the weather lately which means my sense of fashion is non-existent.

When I glanced at myself in a mirror, I realized I have been rocking this pajama look.

There is just something about a good pair of pajamas that always makes me feel more relaxed.
 I love the way the comfortable material strokes your skin, like a mini massage.  How can you not feel a little better?


 I guess other than shoes, I probably have a great collection of pj's of all shapes, sizes and material choices.  When I am sick, I like to wear a lot of bright colors.  Lately, my collection of nightly covers have been pink and purple hues.  I guess it is my way of cheering myself up when I am feeling a little out of sorts.  So with the help of an awesome pair of pj,s, a fluffy pillow and soft-to-touch blanket, I am ready to kick this bug to the curb...

Blood on the Blade

I hurt someone today.  I didn't realize it until it was too late.  I thought about what I could have done differently and upon reflection, there were so many things... 

I thought, when you care about someone,  you protect them and keep them safe from harm. I thought that is what I was doing, protecting something so precious.

Who knew that I was that harm...  I wanted to be honest but I wasn't ready to say what was in my head or in my heart. My words were cold and heartless even though I didn't notice the tone or the climate change at the time. 

 I have never tried to hurt anyone but I can't play victim anymore.  I have to own up to my part..you deserve so much more from a friend...I know now I am the drama draining person in your life..I am sorry I hurt you...

Pent-up Feelings

You hear something you do not like and you stuff it down.

You see something you do not like and you stuff it down.

You read something you do not like and you stuff it down.

Stuff it down to the deepest and darkness part of your soul.
You stuff and  push until nothing else can fit

You let what you have stuffed and pushed fester and churn inside you.

Until those raw emotions are ready fill you completely
and it does not even take a spark to see those pent-up feelings
EXPLODE!

Bump In the Road

I was heading down a smooth road in the direction of my choosing when out of nowhere there was a huge bump that threw me off course.

I am now heading in a direction that I have not picked.  I am not sure if I am even prepared to deal with the change.

What choice do I have?  I have to keep going even though my destination has change my path is still clear.  I just have to watch more carefully for bumps in the road...