Microphones

I have noticed that some chat rooms have people that use the mic. I am not sure how I feel about this yet. Sometimes I like them and sometime I do not. There are times I put mine on mute because I cannot handle the conversation or I am rocking out to my own music and talking gets in the way. I think its funny when you are having a conversation with someone using a mic and they read everything you type aloud in the room and then they respond to it. This can really get old after awhile. So the solution to this is, talk back to them mic to mic.

I do not know why I just do not use mine. I guess its a big step and you cannot re-type a response or edit before sending out to the room. On mic, it is what it is. I think my problem is that I am so worried about sounding like a total dork that I have forgotten that it is meant to be fun. So, I sit there listening to the people on the mic and wishing I would just push that little green talk button. I just seem to talk myself out of it every time I feel like joining in.

My goal is to actually say more than three words in a room. I know I will do it. I did say goodbye as I left a room the other day. Who knows before long I might be one of those mic hogs that everyone puts on ignore? A girl and dream can't she?

Your Real Picture

I have noticed that most guys will ask you for picture. I guess the answer is when will he ask. I can pretty much decided if I am going to talk to someone based on when they ask.

If the first thing they say to me is ASL, then I might not even respond. I have that stuff on my profile. I figure if they really want to know they can check it out. Sometimes I post an ANIME picture instead of a real one for several reasons.

When you put up a real one you get two responses, first they tell everyone in the lobby that they think you are really hot and then you get and bunch of unwanted attention from people that are only interested in chatting up a pretty girl or the second response where they criticize what you look like. The second usually happens after you tell them you are not interested in them or if you ignore them. I do not know why I let people get to me but when they are talking about your own personal picture you take it personally.

With an ANIME picture, I have a little bit of a mysterious element. It also gives me a chance to see if the guy is interesting though conversation. After I chat with him for a bit, I have no problems showing my picture. I guess I respect those that do not ask more because I think they are trying to get to know the real me.

I never have a problem answering questions. I actually love it and there is no question I won't answer just be cautious and make sure you really want to know my answer.

Too Young

Last night, I starting chatting with this guy. He seemed pretty put together. I find that it is really hard errr difficult to find a decent conversation. Well, I began chatting and somewhere along the way the subject of ages comes up and we do the whole ASL thing. He tells me he is 18 and I am thinking, "WHOA!" that is pretty young. We have quite an age difference. We chatted for a bit and then he says, "Do you want to know how old I really am?" In that moment I knew I needed to walk away. What I don't understand is how a child could be on a site at 1 am. Don't parents know what their children are doing online or who is out here. The kid I talked too wanted to know if I would ever consider being with someone his age. I told him no and it was against the law. His words, "No one would know"

Addiction

I had an addiction for several years. I did not know I had a problem until I woke up one morning with letters from my keyboard embedded in my head from where I had fallen asleep at the computer. Yes, I know it's hard err difficult to believe but I was addicted to online chat rooms. I know there is a 12 step program for this type of addiction...take 12 steps away from the keyboard and run. Of course, the first step is always the hardest...err most difficult. I find myself tempted to go back but I am afraid I might not be able to return from that dark side. I thought blogging would be a good alternative to online chat rooms. I feel a little lost now with the web cams and voice chat. Let's get back to old fashion imagination...close your eyes and what do you see....empress of fantasy...here, online you can do anything....this is a place to talk about some adventures in the world of cyberspace

Cherry Licking 101

Can you imagine a hot, steamy day...where you can barely breathe because it is so hot outside? Well, I am there now and all I can think is to kicking back and sipping an ice cold cherry cola and slowly licking the cherries....mmmm

Vacation

Well, it is hard to believe but my vacation is coming to an end. I have to get back to the real world, sigh. I will miss all the fun and all the really great people I have met in the chat rooms. Have a great time and remember to keep smiling! I will try to check back every now and again.

Outside Looking In

When you have been away from chat for awhile, you feel like you are starting over when you finally get a chance to sneak back in.

The rooms change a lot and the people you call "friends" are gone. It seems like you spend a lot of time watching and looking for a friendly face and when you cannot find what you are looking for you change rooms.

I have not found a lot of time to chat as of late but when I do find time, I feel like I am on the outside looking in. I am starting to think it is not the chat room that has changed, but it is me.