Bottoms Up!

Everyone should have a pair of faithful, trusty jeans.  They are always there when I need them, ready to take the stress out of any situation as they relax my sensibilities. 

The hug my hips and I know I can kick back and put my feet up and my jeans will only encourage my comfortable mood.

 I know that when I am having a fashion emergency, I can always count on them, like a trusted friend. 

I hope you have a pair of trusty jeans in your life.

Responsibility

I wish I could change things for you.  I wish I could take the hurt away, but I cannot.  I can only take responsibility for my actions.  I can not blame the one who bullied me but only blame myself for letting those words touch me so completely.  I cannot be responsible for you either.

 I do not make you mad, happy, angry or joyous, only you can do that.  I am sorry for misunderstandings but I have do nothing to be ashamed of...for once, I have just used my words and reached out to talk others.  I have made no commitments only conversations.  I am not looking for more than that here.  These are my words and I have said that all along.  I am not looking to find you here.  

Pillow Fights and PJ's

I have been a little under the weather lately which means my sense of fashion is non-existent.

When I glanced at myself in a mirror, I realized I have been rocking this pajama look.

There is just something about a good pair of pajamas that always makes me feel more relaxed.
 I love the way the comfortable material strokes your skin, like a mini massage.  How can you not feel a little better?


 I guess other than shoes, I probably have a great collection of pj's of all shapes, sizes and material choices.  When I am sick, I like to wear a lot of bright colors.  Lately, my collection of nightly covers have been pink and purple hues.  I guess it is my way of cheering myself up when I am feeling a little out of sorts.  So with the help of an awesome pair of pj,s, a fluffy pillow and soft-to-touch blanket, I am ready to kick this bug to the curb...

Blood on the Blade

I hurt someone today.  I didn't realize it until it was too late.  I thought about what I could have done differently and upon reflection, there were so many things... 

I thought, when you care about someone,  you protect them and keep them safe from harm. I thought that is what I was doing, protecting something so precious.

Who knew that I was that harm...  I wanted to be honest but I wasn't ready to say what was in my head or in my heart. My words were cold and heartless even though I didn't notice the tone or the climate change at the time. 

 I have never tried to hurt anyone but I can't play victim anymore.  I have to own up to my part..you deserve so much more from a friend...I know now I am the drama draining person in your life..I am sorry I hurt you...

Pent-up Feelings

You hear something you do not like and you stuff it down.

You see something you do not like and you stuff it down.

You read something you do not like and you stuff it down.

Stuff it down to the deepest and darkness part of your soul.
You stuff and  push until nothing else can fit

You let what you have stuffed and pushed fester and churn inside you.

Until those raw emotions are ready fill you completely
and it does not even take a spark to see those pent-up feelings
EXPLODE!

Bump In the Road

I was heading down a smooth road in the direction of my choosing when out of nowhere there was a huge bump that threw me off course.

I am now heading in a direction that I have not picked.  I am not sure if I am even prepared to deal with the change.

What choice do I have?  I have to keep going even though my destination has change my path is still clear.  I just have to watch more carefully for bumps in the road...

Drama-Draining

I have had people in my life who I love dearly but they take away most of my time and energy dealing with their crap or I guess a nicer way to put it is...with their "drama".

 It is always something with these individuals, there is always a crisis to be solved, a situation to correct, or a fire to put out!

You spend so much time trying to wrap up their lives into a neat bow that you soon realize it is yours that is in need of some serious attention to detail.  I don't think dropping them like a lead weight it the right way to go.  I think in this situation you have to put some of the blame on you side of the equation.  I mean, you let them borrow and carry from you until you were left with nothing.

The trick here is communication.  It is time to sit down and have a serious conversation with your drama-drainer.  Let them know you are there for them but you can't continue in this way.  Lay down the rules and stick to them.  If your can't follow your guidelines, then you have no choice than to drop them off like college laundry to your mom's house.  Good luck draining the drama from your life!