Monday, May 22, 2017


A friend asks me today why I always spend so much time preparing meals even when I am the only one eating them...

My most honest answer~ is that it doesn't matter if I am making something for friends, family or just for myself~  I really enjoy cooking...

When I was younger,  I would spend a lot of time making treats for my family and friends and as I got older that never stopped. There is just something intoxicating about the way the house smells when you are baking something in the oven.  I would have to say baking is my most favorite past time.

When I moved out on my own, I never really got the taste for fast food so I would always do all the cooking.  Even when I had a roommate, I still volunteered to run the kitchen.  

I am not a selfish cook~ and I would never turn away a willing helper~ creating and learning new things really makes me smile~ maybe one day we will be able to share a meal together~ and you know, I will be the one wearing the apron...

Saturday, May 20, 2017

Happy Hour

After work, I have been spending more and more time going to a pub .  I meet up with colleagues and friends.  

It is really nice to vent about all the crazy things that have happened to you during the week.  The staff all know us by name now.  They know what I am drinking and have one at the ready before I even need to order.  I guess it is because I never order anything with alcohol but just a cherry coke with extra, extra cherries but it is nice that they know what I like.   

Even though I am not much of a drinker but I do enjoy the company.  We usually end up laughing too loudly.  I mean to the point that everyone is glancing our way but we don't really care.  The place we go to has live music.  However, the musicians usually aren't that good but at least they try and for their effort...they always earn a tip from me.  I think I could listen to someone play a guitar all day even it they aren't really good.

I just wanted to remind you~ that life does happen away from a keyboard and spending time laughing out loud is always worth the small price you have to pay~ so seek out your fun....I will see you there~

Saturday, May 13, 2017

Looking for Wonderland

I guess you know by now that the usual chat site is no longer there.

I feel a little disconnected right now trying to find a new place.  The search for what I lost seems to be taking more time than I thought.  I have been opening many doors but either I find a place filled with many lecherous hands or the only place to sit is in a corner way, way in the back of the room.

No place feels right, not even close.  Funny, how you feel loss in the most unusual way.  I miss things you would expect like,  the ease of the conversation and history that only needed a word or two to relate.  I miss the laughter...  I also miss the most annoying things as well.

I am not looking for perfection, is more like I am looking for the chaos more than anything else.
I am looking for a place that I don't feel like I am looking on the outside in~  maybe just a place where everyone knows my name...

I am sure someday I will find what I am looking for...I mean, all we have is time~

Sunday, May 7, 2017


I have been away from here for awhile...

 It isn't like I do not have things to write is more like I didn't know why I should keep putting my thoughts in this arena.

So thank you, anonymous reader, for reminding me why I like to write here.  I write for myself and I am glad others can find value in that...even if the value is low, it is still something.

Time can always get away from you, you take a pause and when you glance up, you find your whole world has time jumped days, weeks, and months into the future.

You can't get lost in the past, you have to keep updating and improving.

I don't know if I will ever be totally happy with myself but I have to know that I will always keep trying and that I don't give up on who I am.

I have to love with all that I am and I have to be willing to let someone do the same for me.  I know updating can be scary because you are so comfortable with yourself and no one likes change but it is a necessary part of life...

When I read back over my posts, I can see the change in my thinking and my approach towards things.  I guess that is what getting older is all about..embracing who you are and knowing when it is time to update...

Saturday, March 25, 2017

Running Late

Have you ever had one of those mornings where nothing seems to be going your way?  I was running late to work because I was dealing with some last minute business at home.  I needed to eat breakfast but I didn't have time to make something at home so I decided to stop off at a drive thru.  Traffic was horrible, but not because of some accident or anything that would make sense.  It was slow simply because the clouds were threatening rain...

Of course there was a long line at the drive thru restaurant, but being a little late to work is better than not eating breakfast.  When I finally, pulled up to pay for my order, the employee said, "The car in front of you paid for your order and asked that you have a wonderful day!"  I was totally shocked.  What started out as a miserable morning, just turned into something quite special.  I smiled my biggest smile and realized that a simply act of kindness sure did go a long way.

It was my time to pay that kindness forward...I paid for the person behind me and changed my outlook for day.  Sure I was later than I wanted to be for work, but I wasn't truly late.

Now, whenever I use a drive thru I always pay for the person behind me.  It is the least I can do, because sometimes it is the little things that mean so much...

Saturday, March 18, 2017

Cherry Blossoms

The weather has been warm lately and the cherry blossoms have begun to peek out in anticipation of theSpring.  Their true color still hidden in their sacred dwelling, but their pledge of spectacular beauty is whispered in the branches of the trees...

But as you know, things seldom go as planned.

Just as we embrace the warmer temperatures and accept the promises that they make, everything changes.

The bitter cold winds bend and twist the branches of the trees as they announce the intention of the approaching storm.

The sky closes its eyes on the sun and the land plunges into a temporary darkness.  The cold attacks and takes the delicate buds as hostage as it coats the land with ice and snow.   The only savor is warmth of the sun which has to fight its way through the storm to rescue the once sought after symbol of beauty from the frozen coffin of ice...

Their were many causalities in this battle but not all is lost, hope is just around the corner and the victorious sun will soon descend to its rightful place as protector of the blossoms~

Wednesday, March 8, 2017

Touched by Words

Do you ever stop and think about all the people that will be touched with your words during your lifetime?  Will you be proud of the words that you used?

When you leave a room, what will people remember about you?

Over time, you develop a sort of "chat family", people you are familiar with.  You know their real names and personal things about them.  You play, poke, hug and laugh together.  You great them with big smiles and you even get a little upset when they have to leave, especially if it is a good conversation.

Have you ever thought about what these people say or think about you when you are not around?  Do they even notice when you are gone?  What kind of person do they really think you are?  What are they thinking when you slip into the room?

I am not talking about the things that are said out loud, I mean the things that are hidden in private thoughts.

I am not saying this to change the way you act or feel but just to give you something to think about...