Tuesday, August 22, 2017

Faded

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When I was younger, I use to have binders filled with pictures and memorable things...I would even take the time to write captions and add stickers to dress everything up~ I guess you could say my memories were all wrapped up with a pretty little bow~

Over the years...these binders are not the same, things have faded and some of those precious items have even been lost...so all that work making them look so special was worthless in the end~

If I don't remember that precious memory, does that mean it didn't happen?  Maybe I just don't want to remember, maybe it is just too painful...

There are so many gaps in my past that I am not sure if I will ever fill them in~ but I have accepted that reality.

I truly believe that even if memories fade~ the emotions that walked beside them will always be woven into the heart and mind~ I may not remember all the details but I will always feel their affects~ so lead with your heart if you cannot fill your mind...





Friday, August 4, 2017

Clouds

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I haven't been myself a lot lately~ mostly because I have a lot of things on my mind.  I was living life above the clouds and not once did I look down..until that day.  I can tell you the exact moment in time when my world came crashing down and I know I will never be the same again.

Life is so full of twists and turns.  You can't predict when you are going to hit a road block and the only certainty in life is that you will most definitely, hit one.

Now, I must re-adjust to my new latitude and figure out how to find my wings and soar once again.

I have spent a lot of time trying to figure out a plan, trying to map out my next move but no matter how much time I put in to this, nothing seems right and I find myself starting over again and again.  I have decided to stop this madness because we both know it is not working.

When we are hurting, when tend to find a place that is safe to lick our wounds and recharge but for me, safety isn't a luxury I have.

I feel alone in a sea of smiling faces.  I know this is not the end of everything but I am finished with making plans and trying to get back to where I once was...I have accepted that I have to invest in a sturdy pair of shoes, because the long walk has just begun...

Thursday, July 27, 2017

Toxic People

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What kind of people do you surround yourself with?  Do they help or hinder you?

Recently, I read an article about toxic people and it got me thinking about the people around me...

First of all, what does it mean to be toxic...well, I am talking about the toxic part of their "behavior" and the drama they create in your life.  Dealing with such an individual can be both difficult and draining.  So, how do you spot one?

Here are some signs of a toxic person: They spread negativity; They criticize you and others; They are jealous; They keep disappointing you; Everything is always dramatic; They play the victim; They are self-centered; They aren't interested in changing.


Do you know anyone that fits the bill here?  If so, what do you do...well, start with taking out a mirror and reflect on what trait makes you such easy prey...assessment just allows you to strengthen any weaknesses.  I not suggesting that you take the blame for their bad behavior but that you learn "why" this is happening so that you can stop it.

Toxic people are manipulators and abuse both emotionally and verbally~ you do not need these type of people in your life.  Plan your exit strategy and just get out...it may seem cruel but over time you will realize the benefits when you are smiling again~ 

My best advise is to always trust your gut~ trust yourself and your judgment...don't dwell on excuses or try to rationalize someone else's bad behavior.  You have to take care of yourself first~ good luck 





Sunday, July 16, 2017

Arsenal

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Did you know that words can literally activate chemical processes that affect us at every level~ emotional, physical, mental~  This can point us in a direction of being successful and happy or one that leads to failure and distress...

You must know that conversations are essential to life...how else can we maintain relationships, build trust, or even bring pleasure to others and ourselves~

I guess that means that being able to communicate effectively is probably the most important basic skill that someone needs to have in order to survive in society.

I have an arsenal of words at my fingertips and it is up to me to pick the ones I use...I can be hurtful, offensive or even down right rude...but I can also heal, praise and compliment~ knowing how and when to use your words helps shape the kind of person you are and what people think about you...

The choice is yours my friend~ pick your words carefully...there is more at stake that you can imagine, especially in our online world...

Thursday, July 13, 2017

The Star

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You hold me in place~ in my world you are my sky...

I can always see my brightness reflected in your eyes...

 I always soar high above the clouds because I can defy gravity when I am wrapped in your embrace.
In your presence, I burn hotter and shine brighter than anyone else around me.  My confidence pulsates in your direction and I can feel my heart quickening with each whisper of your lips...you steal my breath with each passing day...

I give to you my total self, to have and to hold....but where am I in your world...will my brightness someday fade~

Even if I am not always at my brightest, I will always shine for you because your are sky and I am your star...and we hold each other in our world~








Tuesday, July 11, 2017

The Tiger

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A tiger takes a step back before it jumps forward, so whenever life pulls you back, don't worry its going to lead you to a great victory....so in other words, sometimes you have to deal with bad stuff to get to the good stuff.

When you look back on all the times you felt defeated or even when you lost your way, you can see that many of those setbacks turned out to be a blessing in disguise.

Sometimes it takes a tragedy, to see the good in things or people.  How many times have you been moved to be a better version of your self, after knowing something unspeakable happened to someone else?

It is okay to take a moment to let things settle in when you are facing a long and grueling path, but don't rest too long...the sooner you take your first step the sooner you will make it to your intended destination...remember to count your blessings along your way because that will make the monsters go away...



Saturday, July 8, 2017

Safety Not Guaranteed


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Do you ever want to just get away for awhile? I don't mean going on vacation.  I mean to just slip away from your problems and struggles, even if it is just for a brief moment...

I have been wondering how people deal with obstacles in life...and how do they get through things that seem so daunting, too big to ever overcome.  I have heard that you just smile and move forward but what do you do if you don't feel like smiling...if you just don't want to face the formidable opponent, does this make you a coward or just human?

You know, you can do everything right in life~ and live to the ideal.  You can eat all the right foods, exercise regularly, avoid using drugs or alcohol, study hard and get good grades, treat people right, and live virtuously... you can do all these things and still your safety is never guaranteed~ bad things will still happen...you just have to have the strength to get through them...

I am not sure how you do that though...I wish I had the answer.  I look back on my life and see that I have dealt with a lot but I have no idea how I got through it all~ I just did.

I am facing another crossroads in life~ and I am not sure which way to go because both paths look very rocky...I am sure it is normal to be afraid and right now I am numb and I do not know how to smile...I know I can't stay here very long and I must move forward...but I hope it is ok just to rest here for a bit, to take some more time before preceding...