The Path

I haven't seen you in awhile ~and I know a lot has changed...you are not the same person that you use to be. What do I mean by this?

Long ago, we walked this path hand and hand.  We experienced life through the same set of eyes~ seeing things as we thought they should be...

Over time, our paths have veered slightly~ we no longer have the luxury of single sight~ and our hands no longer reach for each other.

We are no longer who we were.  We are altered. Our experiences, which use to mold us~ now only give us reference to our former selves.

I am not saying that is it good or it is bad~ I am just saying we are different now.  Every time you travel alone~ the experiences you encounter change your perception. The person you once were no longer exists upon your return.

Sharing the story of your adventure helps me see your journey more clearly~ and brings our altered paths closer together, but we should be aware that things will no longer be the same~ the only thing that matters is that we continue to move forward~ no matter what gets in our way~

The Threat

Things in chat have been pretty dead lately.  It is really sad to see the place start to crumble.  People use to flock to this place and you had to be clever and witty to stand out, now you just have to have to breathe.
Simulating conversations are few and far between, and maybe that is why I don't slip into there as often.  I am usually greeted with silence~ and who likes to talk to themselves?

Over the last few months, there has been a chatter that likes to threaten me.  He/she goes by the nickname "Murder".   This chatter's main goal is to scare me.  The person has figured out where I live, or to a 150-500 miles accuracy.

He (or she but let's assume he) thinks he is clever to name cities, streets, transportation, and landmarks around where I live to seem to know where I am.  He also like to spout headings from news stories in my area as well.

Yesterday, he told me he had hacked me and he had a friend in the MVA, so he has my license number.  I almost forgot, he has also been watching me for two weeks...

Of course, he can't tell me what kind of car I drive or what I wore or even who I was with~ but he wants me to think he has been obsessing with my every move for weeks~ or months because he has been saying my end is soon~ for awhile now.

So according to Murder, my destiny is to die soon, very soon, for what?  It seems, I have ruffled the feathers of this raven~ and I guess for something I said in a public chatroom means I must die.  I have always tried to be nice and being nice has probably sealed my fate~

I am not going to worry about how I will die...what is the point?  When it is my time, I will face it then, no need to worry now~ I will go on living without looking over my shoulder~ if it is truly my fate~ then it will be and there is nothing to do about it~

I will not walk away~ I will be strong until the end~ I will love hard and fight harder for what is right~ I will have no regrets~you will not break me with words in a place that you hide who you are~ fly away little raven~find peace in your life~

Disappointment

You know it doesn't really matter how prepared you are in life~ you are going to be disappointed, we are not immune to it.

We will find disappointment in our friends, bosses, jobs, lovers, and families.  You shouldn't take it too hard because it is just apart of life.

Since you know disappointment is inevitable, you might as well learn something from it.  Learn how to deal with it and learn how to accept it.

I am hoping I can do this.  I know it is easier to write about learning to deal with disappoint than it is to actually "deal" with it.  All you can do is try, and try you must.

We can work on not disappointing others but frankly, you can control what others think or do.  You can only control your thoughts and actions...

My Wish

Well, I was lucky enough to spend the holidays with family and friends.  It was nice to go home and see the places I have been. It was a scenic walk down memory lane.  Looking back, I can see that I have come so far...

 It is still always good to take the time to reconnect with the past.  I had left a lot of things not put up in its proper place.  Going back, allowed me the opportunity to tidy up and pack things away properly.  It wasn't easy but necessary...

Now, I can focus on what is ahead of me, moving forward with optimistic resolve.

 I wish you peace and happiness in the new year.   I wish you have 12 months of success, 52 weeks full of laughs, 365 days of good health, 8760 hours of happiness, 52600 minutes of joy and 3153600 seconds of good luck~always stay thirsty my friend!