Shall We Sing

You know it is that time again.  For those of you that haven't heard my twisted, sad rendition of a classic Christmas Carol, here it is one more time:

Deck the Wall

Deck the wall with mindless posts
Fa-la-la-la-la, la-la-la
'Tis the reason for the drunkin' host
Fa-la-la-la-la, la-la-la

Don we now our minds in peril
Fa-la-la-la-la, la-la-la
Tolling chat should make us sterile
Fa-la-la-la-la, la-la-la

See the hell-raising regs before us.
Fa-la-la-la-la, la-la-la
Our boo-fucking-hoos are a well-played chorus
Fa-la-la-la-la, la-la-la

Follow me in keyboarding pleasure.
Fa-la-la-la-la, la-la-la
While I tell of past chat leisure
Fa-la-la-la-la, la-la-la

Fast away the old whine passes
Fa-la-la-la-la, la-la-la
Hail the new year, lads and lasses
Fa-la-la-la-la, la-la-la

Wall reading we enjoy, all together
Fa-la-la-la-la, la-la-la
Heedless of our ruffed feathers
Fa-la-la-la-la, la-la-la

Happy holidays ya'll pass the eggnog!

Discontent

I was shocked when I woke up and read that Trump would be our next President... This election was difficult for me because frankly, I didn't like any of the candidates, but NOT voting was Never an option.  I had to figure out who was the "lesser of two evils" when both were truly evil.

I would like to believe that people voted for Trump because they were tired of the status quo and and wanted a change in a seemingly corrupt government.

I understand why a lot of people are discontent following the election.  It is rooted in our continued feelings of separation, isolation, limited resources, and increased entitlement but I don't think we need the help of politicians to fix this.  We simply need to wake up and to it ourselves.

What we need to realize is that everyone has more in common than we think.  We are not yet ready for equality, instead needing equity to elevate the disadvantaged so that they may equally participate. That said, we do need to focus on better jobs, better healthcare, better education, better opportunity, environmental improvements, better nutrition, etc. These needs are universal.

Instead of constantly telling people they are wrong, we need to listen and work together so we all can achieve.  Yes, the government needs to be fixed, but first we need to fix ourselves and each other.

I know, it is time for me to step off this political soap box, and start putting action to my words...

The Visit

I use to think that the people I met online were real but I have discovered that is not necessarily true.

I mean some "people" are actually just made-up characters. They are not really whom they seem to be.

It makes the idea of an online world more like an interactive novel with make believe characters and ending may never have a predictable outcome~

It seems as thought you can't apply logic to this illogical world and things are never as they seem.

It explains why the online bullies are probably the ones getting bullied in real life.  The social butterflies are probably socially awkward and the smooth talkers probably the ones that hold their tongues.

You have to remember your medium.  The internet allows you to be anything or anyone you like. Haters and judgers are out there only to make you show your true colors or to simply satisfy their own needs through your despair.

They are not your friends and could care less what happens to you.  It is just their sick game.

Like I said before, people online are never who you think they are...well most of them.  There are a small number of people who are genuine and real but they are a rare find.  I hope you find someone real and genuine online if that is what you are looking for~

Am I real?  Some would say no,  but really only you can decide that~

Whey am I here?  I find this world fascinating, like a good book.  It is like a diner at the end of the road~ no telling who will end up there with you but every time you go there you experience a new and exciting adventure~

To survive in this world you have to have a "trust no one" belief system, and for some that is not a way to live.  That is why you can't really live in an online world.  It it is just a place to visit and grab a cup of hot tea and a muffin~

The Loop

Life can keep you pretty busy.

It seems that you buckle down, put your nose to the grindstone, and work as hard as you can and then you pause, take a moment to look up-up and the world has jumped forward a few days.

You are living in an everlasting loop of mundane tasks and if you are not careful you will forget to live and just exist.

To live, you have to take those precious  moments when you are not working and do something you enjoy.

Over time, you will reverse things so that your work becomes the pauses and you start living in the loop of your life that is worth living, all of those real moments that count...

So my advice is to work hard, but play harder...we never know how much time we have to enjoy the loop my friend...

Square Peg

In this world, there are a lot of square pegs trying to find the right spot to fit in to.  Trying to find a place to kick back and feel totally comfortable with the shapes around them.  Perhaps, a place where everyone just knows your name is enough...

You have to wonder what is the price you are paying to be here.  What part of yourself do you want people to see?  Do you hide all your edges? Are you showing us the real you or the one you have made up to be better than you truly are?

 I would like to step upon my soapbox and spout the truth of who I am but you must know, I am only a shell of who I choose to show you and very few ever really get to glimpse the whole of me.

What is your sacrifice?  What is MY sacrifice?  I have been thinking about this and I have to say living in an online world drags you away from the in-your-face reality of the real world.

 I am not saying that is a good or bad thing.  I am just saying the longer you are here the less time you spend there.  So, my sacrifice is TIME.  A precious commodity that you can never get back and only you can decide if it is worth it...

We are all flawed and the sooner learn this the better.  We are all trying to find our place.  We are all trying to fit in.  The trick is not to change who you are but to figure out how to put a square peg into a round hole~

Frustration

I haven't been online much this week because real life has a way of dragging you back in...

This has been a pretty crazy week for me but mostly because of a lack of communication with my boss.  I just realized that mind reading is a skill that my superior believes I possess but at las, I do not!

This has lead to a lot of frustrating moments for me because in a tug-a-war of who is right; the balance always tips to the one getting the higher paycheck.  The poorer one ends up re-doing everything to appease the God-like ego baring one.

I like efficiency and working smarter and not harder so I have to wrap my head around communicating with someone who does not say what they mean but always seems to have hidden meanings behind each and every syllable used.

And I have to ask, "Where is my decoder ring when I need it?"

The Music in Me

I am sure this will not shock you...but I love music.  I really do not have a favorite type of music but I do find myself buying a lot of alternative rock and pop songs.

I guess my mood determines what I type of music you would hear pumping out of my speakers or headphones.

When I need to concentrate or do paperwork, I usually listen to classical music.  There is just something about a piano that really relaxes my mind.

When I am browsing or shopping online, I pick something with a beat that makes my pulse quicken and my body bang.

When I am chatting, I listen to a lot of classic rock n roll and I think that is because the chatters are posing more links with classic rock titles.   

I enjoy listening to the same song with a lot of strangers online.  It connects us together at that moment and it makes the moment seem more real and not to mention it is fun!

When I am alone in my car, I usually listen to one of my many CDs.  I guess I am kinda old school about that too.  I still buy my music from a real store and get a real disc.  I do download songs but I still like to purchase the actual CD.

My favorite part of buying the whole "album" is the drive home.  I crank up the volume and listen for the chorus of the new songs before I move to the next one.  This way I have a chance to hear a little bit of every song so that I can can listen to all the songs on my new CD before I get home.

I would say that this is one of my guilty pleasures in life~ I hope you find something that moves you too~

The Light

It isn't always easy to be nice to everyone so why do I try so hard?

Life isn't alway easy and a lot of people struggle with things.  You probably don't even know what they are going through~ so why spend your time making things worse for people.

It is just as easy to say something meaningful as it is to say something hurtful~ so take the higher road~ it will put you in a better place.  But don't do it for them~ do it for yourself~

If you put out only negativity in the world, I firmly believe that you will get that back in return~ but if you give something positive from your heart, no matter how small~ you will feel how rewarding it can be~pretty cheesy I know~

I just know~ letting go of worry and not letting people's words hurt you~ makes you feel better~ I do hate to see all the miserable people in the world~ those who have to tear people down in order to build themselves up~and trying to be nice~ turning the other cheek~ is just far more rewarding~

The Battle

Why is it so important to pick sides in a battle?

I guess finding the one you agree more with is part of life.  You are constantly trying to see who you are in the face of others.

I wonder how you choose when you like or dislike both equally~ and you know fundamentally that tipping yourself to one side or the other says something about who you are to others~ What do you?

You can tell everyone you are neutral~ but are you really?  In order to back that claim~ you, yourself have to be strong~ you have to have an army fighters that can back you up~ if not~ you too, must pick a side...

Do you care?  Do you care what others think about your choice?  I think we all care, it is what makes us human.  We may spout words of venom or casually toss out quips of no consequence~ but that is just to mask how we really feel~ to dodge our human side~ so no one will know our weakness~

So, who will I pick?  I will continue training my soldiers and will keep my army strong~ I will fight the battle of neutrality until I stumble, then you will see who I truly am~

Impulse~

I notice that my posts that are more sexual in nature get a higher amount of readability.  So, do I willingly continue to infuse my writings with little tidbits of sexual innuendo just to draw readers here or do I simply lay them down as they naturally come to mind?

Words are an amazing thing.  I can hold their firmness between my fingers and let my hands slowly explore every surface, sliding and slipping over the top of my keyboard.  I feel the rhythm pushing, harder and faster as I stroke feverishly, creating an euphoric nature as my words burst into a new ummmm idea.

It is a part of me and how I write.  I guess its tempo will always be there.  I can't pick my words purposefully to draw you here because I wouldn't be writing for me anymore.  I would just simply be a word whore and I want more than that...but we all know I do have a sexual side that wraps its way around all that I do and it probably comes out to play a lot more than it should...

Packages

Have you ever thought about why are you here? Why did you decide to come to this page?

You are reading my words and for a moment you are here with me.  I am not judging you or trying to change who you are but I am sharing time with you, in this moment we are one.

I wonder about what you are thinking as you read these words.  I wish our space was the same for just a bit so that I could feel you breath and glance upon your gestures as you read my words.

Instead, I must image who you might be and guess what brought you here to me.  I hope your day was good and you smiled at least once, if not a zillion times because frankly, I love to gaze upon a smiling face~ =)

I hope you took the time today to notice something small and insignificant.  I found that the greatest treasures are ones that come in small, insignificant packages.  They are wrapped up kind thoughts and grand gestures that need no worldly recognition.  Just a moment of time to notice something and appreciate its being there for you.

Thank you for your time, enjoy yourself and know for a moment there was someone here that thinks you are the best, even if in the scheme of things it is just an insignificant moment of time that we were together~

I See You

I see you.  The person you try to be for me and the person you are to everyone else.  Why are there so many paths on the road you are traveling?

I see you.  The person you put down on paper and the person you fill the world with.  Why are there so many causalities in your battle of the heart?

I see you.  The person you play on stage and the person you hold in the darkness of the day.  Why are there so many words in the pages of your life story?

I see you.  The person you scream in the height of passion and the person you strangle in the mist of the rain.  Why are there so many questions about you?

I see you.  I see you in my reflection.  I see you as you see me.  I see you.

The Ogre

Do you think you have the right to say whatever you want?

I guess if you believe in freedom of speech that means you have to allow people to say what they want, even if you do not like what they have to say.

It may seem like free speech protects the haters and you may be right~ but when you start deciding what can be said and what cannot and where the line is~then true freedom is lost.

I don't like all the things that I hear or see in chat but I would never risk not letting those people say whatever they want about any topic.  If I do not like it~ I can choose to ignore what they say or even just walk away if it bothers that much~

I am not saying it is easy, to just ignore but sometimes you have to man or woman up! ~ So let the hate spill out, for freedom's sake... but let me use my umbrella of common sense to protect myself from the worlds I do not like~

Let freedom ring and the tongues wag~

The Slave

I wrote this post a few years back~ but it still seems relevant~

I have been spending time thinking about my future lately and if I see a place for a husband and children~

I am in no rush to get married because I have seen too many people rush down the aisle only to divorce as quickly.

I don't think I would be happy just playing house with a guy either.  I guess you can say my views on marriage are very old fashion.

 I want to find a guy that can take care of me but not because I can't take care of myself. I don't need to get married but it is something I want to do when I find the right person...

I believe that a man should be the head of the household.  I am not saying that he shouldn't listen to his wife, make compromises or that he should always get his way.  I just feel there should be one person with a little more power in any relationship.  When the vote is tied, someone has to break it~

I don't think being in control means that things are easy for you~ actually I think it means that you have a larger burden to carry.

I believe a man should take care of his woman and a woman should take care of her man.  Maybe I would feel differently, if the successful role models in my life were not this way.

I don't think there is anything wrong with a woman who wants to be a domestic goddess for her husband~ the one that cooks, cleans, take care of the house/children and  of course, her man,  as long as her man takes care of his family, which always includes taking out the garbage and managing the yard~

I know someday I will find what I am looking for~ but right now, I am just looking to enjoy what I have~

Your Undoing~

~Warning~

The conversation always seems to head into the bedroom or on the kitchen table...don't get me wrong, I am usually pointing it in that direction to arouse some hidden agenda.

 I like that you can't always detect the true meaning unless you unwrap it a little more.  There is always something not shown in the words that are typed but it's always implied~

The fun is in the discovery~

You really start to understand how someone thinks from the nature of their response.

 They are just words typed on a screen but they can scream volumes to an observant pair of eyes~
Guard you words carefully~ they may be your undoing~

The Watcher

I guess you are either a player or the one watching the game~  I have always thought that playing the game was the most important part of life~ that being in the action~ making the plays~ working with your team~ was what it was all about~

I guess you would say I am a player~ the one in control of the action...the one everyone has their eye on~ and I really thought that I was happy in the role I have taken~ until recently of course~

Injury has a way of flipping your life upside down~ and forces you to look at things from a different point of view~ I am no longer in the action, I am the one sitting on the sidelines watching the game~

At first, I felt sorry for myself~ wow, listing all the things I missed and how my life was so bad now~ I was hurting~ but the pain wasn't from the loss of the game that I love so very much~ the loss was something more~ it was the idea~ that playing was the only thing that mattered...The watcher are the ones that make being a player so important~

I am now a watcher~ and I have began to understand that watching isn't an inferior thing, but a vital part of the process~ what would the player be if no one was there to watch?

You never know~ if you will be a player or a watcher~ in the future~ so know~ both roles are just as important~ so enjoy the game, no matter what position you play~

Power

In life, we are always trying to gain power~ it may not be some elaborate scheme to become the ALL POWERFUL~ but it is a way of getting control of things~I have seen the good and the bad~ lost to the sacrificial notion of dominating everything~

I am aware of my faults~ in this matter~ I, like others, am constantly seduced by this notion~ not better or worse that those that rub elbows around me~ tempted enough to look at the world through these faulty lenses~ and see my rise to glory~ to see my feet firmly planted upon the desk of my ambitions~ only lacking the evil laugh ~ muahahahaha~ to be completed

We can go about getting this "power" in many ways~ but which way is the best is always your choice~ do not let others influence you differently~and I know~ this is easier said than done~

Pushing against the crowd~ changing direction~ can feel nearly impossible to accomplish~I wish I had all the answers~ to solve all the problems~ but that would just be protecting others from a journey they are destined to complete~ we can't keep others safe from the harshness of life~ for it is that struggle will make them stronger~ so I wish~ for you...to have strength above all~ make a choice~ follow the path~ for ultimately~ YOU HAVE THE POWER!!!!

Your Voice

Sometimes it is easier to hide yourself away than it is to face the craziness of our world as of late~

All I hear and see in the news is nothing more than innocent people getting hurt~ and there seems to be no good reasons for any of it~

I know we are surrounded by people that don't always say the things we want to hear~ but it is up to us to listen and to make choices for ourselves and not just because others think it is the right thing to do~but because we, ourselves,  think it is the right thing to do~

I would also caution you to poisons of what you see~ for I believe we can be easily manipulated into a common voice by only getting facts from one source.  We must do our due diligence and make sure we have a clear understanding of the facts from many different places~

It is easy to feel helpless and complain about all that is wrong in our world but it is a lot harder to stand for something~ anything, decide what you think is right and just have a voice~ say what you think and join the conversation~ 

Sparks

There are fireworks again tonight~

Hold me firmly in place by your captivating illumination.

Let me feel the stirring of exhilaration as I am touched by your glorious exhibition.

Ignite the night and bring me to the edge of my senses.

Make me shutter as you roar triumphantly in a brilliant flash of sizzling sparks.

Let me waft the haze of the charred sky and drink in its luminous intoxication.

Feel my heart quicken as your impulsive rocket burst repetitively, lost in a deafening boom.

There are fireworks again tonight~

The Song

The beat wraps you in a gentle cadence and you begin to sway to the rhythmic motion.

You slowly lose your resolve as the pulse gradually increases and takes control of your body, mind, and soul...

You can now feel the power coursing through every part of you ...thump, thump, thump...your heart quickens and instinctively, your body pulsates as the tempo crashes against you, over and over again~

The throbbing you feel only pounds harder and you shift your body back and forth...on the edge of losing control to the gyrating pulse that surrounds you.

You cannot wait anymore and you lose yourself in the rhythmic beat... of the music~

Keep dancing my friend~ for losing yourself, if only for a moment~ is sure worth the release...

The Bed

Today is a lazy day~ nothing really to do...how often do these circumstances come your way...

A day to stay in bed a little longer than you should, wrapped in the warmth of your bedding~as if, it is holding you there...your struggle is only stay and not to connivence yourself to leave~how long will you hold out? 

You close your eyes not really wanting to sleep or to rest but just to find your way back to a dream~a place you can still feel in every part of your being, but the vision is hazy and rebelliously starts to slips slowly from your remembrance.

You know that going back is impossible but what will lie ahead~will it feel as good as this once was, perhaps, but you still hold on~ the hope is still tightly wound about you~

Here your struggles are real~ you just want to remain where you are~ so safe, so free, so very close to having all that you desire~

You do know~ this will not last forever~ and the more you try to remain~ the more quickly the time will come that you must leave~ so enjoy my friend~ hold on to your day...for the night is quickly approaching~ and soon all will be lost...

The Bucket List

I have a lot of experiences and achievements that I would like to accomplish in my lifetime, or in others words my "bucket list"...

Here are the things I have completed so far~

I have fallen in love, gone on a blind date, skipped school, watch someone give birth and watch someone die, ridden in an ambulance, seen the Grand Canyon in person, flown in a helicopter, been on a cruise, served on a jury, danced in the rain, played in a band, sang karaoke, laughed until I cried, caught snowflakes on my tongue, had pets, been sledding on a big hill, been downhill and water skiing, rode a motorcycle, been to a drive-in movie, been on TV, rode a horse, been in the newspaper, stayed in the hospital, donated blood, gotten a piercing, driven a stick shift, been scuba diving, lived on my own, got a speeding ticket, gotten stitches, had a picnic, built a gingerbread house, run a marathon, gone whitewater rafting, gone on a road trip, gone to a pow wow, invested in the stock market, and chilled on the beach... 

Here are some of the things I still have left to do~

I want visit all 50 states (38 so far), be in a movie or video, jump out of a plane, climb a mountain, ride an elephant, get a tattoo, travel alone, float in the Dead Sea, visit all seven continents, explore Iceland, Holiday in a log cabin in the snow, name a star, go to the Day of the Dead in Mexico, go to a Super Bowl and see the Vikings play, sail a boat, go snowboarding, chase a tornado, stand under a waterfall, swim with a school of fish, share a cab with a stranger, meet the President, write a love note on the bathroom mirror with lipstick, make something on a pottery wheel,  dye my hair a crazy color, get acupuncture, have my palm read, get married and have a child...

I am not sure my list will ever be complete~ but most importantly~ I want to live life and experience it to its fullest~what is on your list?

Caution

You really have to be careful about what information you put out in the online world.  

I was recently targeted online.   My abuser felt it was necessary to share all my private information in his/her attack on me.  Nothing was safe...my name, age, location, employment...and even my family.  

My harasser pulled out all the guns and was determined that everyone should know every mistake I ever made online.  I was threatened and bullied for hours.

I should be angry or upset at this display but I have to take the blame for giving this hater the ammunition that he/she used against me.

There wasn't one piece of information that I didn't put out there myself.  Yes, it wasn't a pleasant thing that happened but I can't hold a grudge for something that was my doing.  

All I can do now, is let you know what can happen if you put too much information out there in the world.  You have to be cautious with your trust my friend~

The Room

You bound into the room expecting to be overwhelmed with tantalizing conversation but this is not the case.

Today the room is quiet and an unrelenting silence fills the air.  You are surrounded by people or at least that is how it seems.

You pause.  You wait.  You observe the contents of the room to discern the situation.  Why it is so still?  Where is the conversation?

You have but three choices:  You back up slowly and leave.  You can stay and wait for your circumstances to change or you can change your circumstances.  What do you choose?  How will you proceed?

I can not say that my choice is always the same.  Being an emotional creature,  my mood always dictates my response.

Today I will stand up and fight...I will evoke all that I have to bring this world to life.  I will succeed.  I will bring the conversation back.  I will enjoy our conversation once again my friends...what will you choose to do today?

Sandman

The world is still. The sound of slumber surrounds me, but sleep eludes me again tonight...

I have been down this path many, many times.  I see the day replaying in my head like top spinning over and over again.

 I go through the motions, hoping that restful peace will come to me soon.

 I play the part...position myself perfectly, relaxing and closing my eyes, thinking of dreams that will come to me soon.  My breathing slows and mind my begins to still but that damn sandman fails to take me away to the place I hoping to go.

 I try again and again until the frustration builds and builds.  I know now this game has just begun...and my only release may never come, stay with me my friend and bring me to my end.

 Let's drift off together and let the sleep take us away...

Clouded Reality

My innocent little cold went full on battle mode this week~

I know, I really should listen when people say you should slow down and take some time for yourself and reduce stress in your life~because maybe if I had listened~ I wouldn't have spent the last week in a clouded drug induced reality~

I thought I could cure myself when a healthy diet supplemented with plenty of rest and and a steady flow of fluids~ but the truth was simple~ I was too miserable to sleep and without sleep I become too tired to eat or drink...and things went downhill fast~ a developed pneumonia, which meant~ I had to visit the dreaded "doctor's office" to get some help~

I am not proud that I needed help~I like to think I can do things all by myself but when illness starts getting aggressive~you gotta suck it up~

I was able to find the relief I needed to finally get some rest and it seemed like as soon as I closed my eyes~ I woke up to being back to my normal state of wellness~

I do not wish sickness on anyone~ and I am definitely not at my best when I am sick~ so let's make a pact~ let's take time to relax each day and don't let so many stresses bog us down~ let's stay healthy together...

BeeHave

Spring seems to be bringing a few challenges for me.

 I have noticed that I have bees flying in and out of my stacked wood in my backyard.  I wouldn't be to bothered by I do need to use the wood and besides the bees are not paying rent!

I don't want to kill the bees.  I just want them to find a new place to live.

 I am in the process of identifying what type of bees I have.

If they are honeybees, everyone that I have talked to will come and remove them free of charge and will even toss in a jar of honey for grins.

If I have ground bees or yellow jackets, they are considered pests and I have to pay hundreds of dollars to have them removed.

So, how to you get a bee identified~ apparently you just have to take a picture of it~ the only problem is no one told the bees they had to sit still and smile for the camera because those little pesky flyers are difficult to capture on "film".

I am off to find my bee supermodel~ wish me luck because I will certainly need it!

Perception

My alarm played that same jolting song today and half coherently, I tapped into a few more minutes of snooze time, but have I been here before?

This deja vu feeling filled my perception.  I have become to comfortable in my surroundings and I have no idea when it all came to be.  I need to shake off this routine time loop and become more like my former self.

Some would say, age has slowed me down but I think that is just talk for when you don't know what to say.  I think we all want to find a place where we feel content but we shouldn't get lost in its redundancy.

I think life needs to be unrehearsed and even messy at times.  We need to exist on the cusp of spontaneity and embrace the unplanned parts of our lives because in these moments we truly breathe.

I am not sure how I will escape my fate but becoming aware is always the first step toward change...

Crashing

I finally made it back to the beach~ but it was downright freezing!

I did manage to find some adventure outside even if the temperature would not cooperate.

I rented a bike and rode through the most majestic scenes I could imagined. I hunted for rocks that glistened in the peek-a-boo sunlight light along the beach.  I wondered in and out of shops along the boardwalk  and I even played  a game of toss the football ~ in the pouring rain.

Even with all the grins and giggles, I would say that I my most treasured moments were just listening to the crescendo of sounds that waves made as they were crashed ashore...I don't know what draws me to the ocean but I always feel so calm and relaxed there and you would too~ I just know it...

Safe Keeping

I am not a rich person by trade.  I work hard but the ideal life style is not reflected in my paycheck.

 I got some really good advice when I first started working.

My boss told me to try to live on what I make now and when I get a promotion/raise to put that money in savings or investments. This advice has served me well.

I also think you need to be responsible with credit cards. This means paying off the entire balance at the end of the month so that you never get any interest charges.  If you can't afford to pay it off, then you can't afford to have it!

I have learned that you do have to live within your means and you do not need all the bells and whistles to be happy.

We always have to make sacrifices.  You just have to decide if you want to do it now or in the future. I think now, is always a good place to start~for a bright future~ my friend...

Background Noise

You see where you want to be in life, you have mapped it all out.

Your plan is airtight, with no possibility of holes.  You are focused and determined to see it through and then you take you first step...

You walk alone because this seems like the best way to get where you are going, no distractions.  But as your journey continues, you meet people along the way.

These individuals are destined to either move you closer to your goal or sidetrack your intent.  You are given choices and those choices will be your triumph or your undoing.

The sooner you learn that your control is not in the destination but in the choices you make, the sooner you will arrive to the place you want to be...it just might not look the way you have envisioned it...safe journey my friend...

Names

Have you every wondered why people pick the screen names that they use in chatrooms?  I think it really tells a lot about who they are and who they want to be.

So what does Cherry_Licious say about me?

Well, I have to say that my nick tells you who I usta be in chat many years ago.

Cherry back then was very young and naive.  I really put a lot of myself out there in the online world. I showed no shame with the art of seduction and I was pretty wild, I would say, even reckless.

I spent a lot of my time in this online world, looking back, I am sure  I was avoiding the real world but I never really thought about that back then.  In real life, I am not like that but online I could be... "Cherry"...but I have learned to accept who I am, faults and all~ and embrace it.  That doesn't mean..Cherry doesn't come out to play ever once in awhile~

I would change my nick to reflect the person I am now, but~ I like the journey and if I changed my screen name~all those I have met along the way wouldn't recognize me and I think that would be harder.  I have no regrets because I believe that the good and bad things we experience are how we become who we are and I wouldn't change who I am now.

I would love to see who you really are in chat~ but I know I only get to see what you want me to see~I accept that~ that is how I know this is not the real world and what we have online cannot ever truly be real~

Conversation

I am worried about conversation.  Is it a lost art form?

Do people no longer get excited from the melody of words that spark between two people?

 Where is the chase and adventure in exploring new topics?

I look back over the years of how my writing has changed and transformed me into the person I am today.  I still love to communicate with people.

 I still find an attraction to a cleverly put together sentence.  It is not the grammar the excites me but the meaning behind the words.  It is the hidden knowledge of a secret language shared between two people.  No matter where you are, I can appreciate how you have equipped yourself with words and targeted a tantalizing topic.

Your attack is swift and well planned as you drop each syllable in your conversational campaign.  I am not cowering from your word bombardment, instead..I am taking it all in and wrapping myself in the cadence of our conversation.

This is the enjoyment you bring to me every time we exchange our secret language of twisted and pulse quickening words...an art form that I hope is never lost between us...

Valentine Moments

Wow~ Another year has passed...and it is yet again Valentine's Day.  I guess my stance on the day hasn't changed very much.  I know as a female I should love the day but simply, it is just another day on the calendar.

I am not against love or giving gifts.  I am just about not making that so routine.

I believe that you should show that you care everyday of the year.

Your special someone should get little tokens of love when you are thinking out them, you know those~ just because moments not because it is "the day" to do it.

I think cards, flowers, chocolates and jewelry are just so cookie cutter.  Show me that you care with your time, your words, and your actions...not your wallet.

I am happy to step off my soap box now...and go spend some time with the special someone in my life..enjoy the moments everyone, not the materials~

Snowzilla

Mother Nature decided to show her teeth when she sent twenty-four inches of snow my way.

I know I should be horrified about this winter event but I love the way the world seems more peaceful when blanketed with snow.  The snow muffles out the daily chaos of city and coats it in a muted pace.

I can't say that I found shoveling the snow a fun activity but sharing it with my neighbors did bring me satisfaction.  I did have some time for fun...snowball wars, sledding, and even building a few snow masterpieces.

For every long day in the frozen outdoors, brought a warm fire and hot tea to soothe aching muscles...

The Clock Strikes

As the clock strikes midnight, a new year rushes in...you can only conclude that we have another 366 days to make difference.

What will you do this year?

I know I will make plenty of mistakes...but the question is, will I learn from those mistakes and will it change anything?

I noticed that I do spend a lot of time writing about being happy.  I guess that makes me take a good, hard look at my life and ask those really tough questions like...Am I happy? What would I change, if anything?

I had some really tough obstacles to overcome in my life and I have spent a long time trying to "get over it" but I think I am tired of running from those things.  I think that is time to embrace that part of my life and accept that it is what makes me, well..."me".

For the first time in a very long time, I think I am ready to start a new adventure.  I am not sure where I am heading this year but I know, for me, it will be full of changes.

I hope you find whatever it is your are looking for this year.  I hope your adventure is grand...