Impulse~

I notice that my posts that are more sexual in nature get a higher amount of readability.  So, do I willingly continue to infuse my writings with little tidbits of sexual innuendo just to draw readers here or do I simply lay them down as they naturally come to mind?

Words are an amazing thing.  I can hold their firmness between my fingers and let my hands slowly explore every surface, sliding and slipping over the top of my keyboard.  I feel the rhythm pushing, harder and faster as I stroke feverishly, creating an euphoric nature as my words burst into a new ummmm idea.

It is a part of me and how I write.  I guess its tempo will always be there.  I can't pick my words purposefully to draw you here because I wouldn't be writing for me anymore.  I would just simply be a word whore and I want more than that...but we all know I do have a sexual side that wraps its way around all that I do and it probably comes out to play a lot more than it should...

Packages

Have you ever thought about why are you here? Why did you decide to come to this page?

You are reading my words and for a moment you are here with me.  I am not judging you or trying to change who you are but I am sharing time with you, in this moment we are one.

I wonder about what you are thinking as you read these words.  I wish our space was the same for just a bit so that I could feel you breath and glance upon your gestures as you read my words.

Instead, I must image who you might be and guess what brought you here to me.  I hope your day was good and you smiled at least once, if not a zillion times because frankly, I love to gaze upon a smiling face~ =)

I hope you took the time today to notice something small and insignificant.  I found that the greatest treasures are ones that come in small, insignificant packages.  They are wrapped up kind thoughts and grand gestures that need no worldly recognition.  Just a moment of time to notice something and appreciate its being there for you.

Thank you for your time, enjoy yourself and know for a moment there was someone here that thinks you are the best, even if in the scheme of things it is just an insignificant moment of time that we were together~

I See You

I see you.  The person you try to be for me and the person you are to everyone else.  Why are there so many paths on the road you are traveling?

I see you.  The person you put down on paper and the person you fill the world with.  Why are there so many causalities in your battle of the heart?

I see you.  The person you play on stage and the person you hold in the darkness of the day.  Why are there so many words in the pages of your life story?

I see you.  The person you scream in the height of passion and the person you strangle in the mist of the rain.  Why are there so many questions about you?

I see you.  I see you in my reflection.  I see you as you see me.  I see you.

The Ogre

Do you think you have the right to say whatever you want?

I guess if you believe in freedom of speech that means you have to allow people to say what they want, even if you do not like what they have to say.

It may seem like free speech protects the haters and you may be right~ but when you start deciding what can be said and what cannot and where the line is~then true freedom is lost.

I don't like all the things that I hear or see in chat but I would never risk not letting those people say whatever they want about any topic.  If I do not like it~ I can choose to ignore what they say or even just walk away if it bothers that much~

I am not saying it is easy, to just ignore but sometimes you have to man or woman up! ~ So let the hate spill out, for freedom's sake... but let me use my umbrella of common sense to protect myself from the worlds I do not like~

Let freedom ring and the tongues wag~

The Slave

I wrote this post a few years back~ but it still seems relevant~

I have been spending time thinking about my future lately and if I see a place for a husband and children~

I am in no rush to get married because I have seen too many people rush down the aisle only to divorce as quickly.

I don't think I would be happy just playing house with a guy either.  I guess you can say my views on marriage are very old fashion.

 I want to find a guy that can take care of me but not because I can't take care of myself. I don't need to get married but it is something I want to do when I find the right person...

I believe that a man should be the head of the household.  I am not saying that he shouldn't listen to his wife, make compromises or that he should always get his way.  I just feel there should be one person with a little more power in any relationship.  When the vote is tied, someone has to break it~

I don't think being in control means that things are easy for you~ actually I think it means that you have a larger burden to carry.

I believe a man should take care of his woman and a woman should take care of her man.  Maybe I would feel differently, if the successful role models in my life were not this way.

I don't think there is anything wrong with a woman who wants to be a domestic goddess for her husband~ the one that cooks, cleans, take care of the house/children and  of course, her man,  as long as her man takes care of his family, which always includes taking out the garbage and managing the yard~

I know someday I will find what I am looking for~ but right now, I am just looking to enjoy what I have~

Your Undoing~

~Warning~

The conversation always seems to head into the bedroom or on the kitchen table...don't get me wrong, I am usually pointing it in that direction to arouse some hidden agenda.

 I like that you can't always detect the true meaning unless you unwrap it a little more.  There is always something not shown in the words that are typed but it's always implied~

The fun is in the discovery~

You really start to understand how someone thinks from the nature of their response.

 They are just words typed on a screen but they can scream volumes to an observant pair of eyes~
Guard you words carefully~ they may be your undoing~

The Watcher

I guess you are either a player or the one watching the game~  I have always thought that playing the game was the most important part of life~ that being in the action~ making the plays~ working with your team~ was what it was all about~

I guess you would say I am a player~ the one in control of the action...the one everyone has their eye on~ and I really thought that I was happy in the role I have taken~ until recently of course~

Injury has a way of flipping your life upside down~ and forces you to look at things from a different point of view~ I am no longer in the action, I am the one sitting on the sidelines watching the game~

At first, I felt sorry for myself~ wow, listing all the things I missed and how my life was so bad now~ I was hurting~ but the pain wasn't from the loss of the game that I love so very much~ the loss was something more~ it was the idea~ that playing was the only thing that mattered...The watcher are the ones that make being a player so important~

I am now a watcher~ and I have began to understand that watching isn't an inferior thing, but a vital part of the process~ what would the player be if no one was there to watch?

You never know~ if you will be a player or a watcher~ in the future~ so know~ both roles are just as important~ so enjoy the game, no matter what position you play~

Power

In life, we are always trying to gain power~ it may not be some elaborate scheme to become the ALL POWERFUL~ but it is a way of getting control of things~I have seen the good and the bad~ lost to the sacrificial notion of dominating everything~

I am aware of my faults~ in this matter~ I, like others, am constantly seduced by this notion~ not better or worse that those that rub elbows around me~ tempted enough to look at the world through these faulty lenses~ and see my rise to glory~ to see my feet firmly planted upon the desk of my ambitions~ only lacking the evil laugh ~ muahahahaha~ to be completed

We can go about getting this "power" in many ways~ but which way is the best is always your choice~ do not let others influence you differently~and I know~ this is easier said than done~

Pushing against the crowd~ changing direction~ can feel nearly impossible to accomplish~I wish I had all the answers~ to solve all the problems~ but that would just be protecting others from a journey they are destined to complete~ we can't keep others safe from the harshness of life~ for it is that struggle will make them stronger~ so I wish~ for you...to have strength above all~ make a choice~ follow the path~ for ultimately~ YOU HAVE THE POWER!!!!

Your Voice

Sometimes it is easier to hide yourself away than it is to face the craziness of our world as of late~

All I hear and see in the news is nothing more than innocent people getting hurt~ and there seems to be no good reasons for any of it~

I know we are surrounded by people that don't always say the things we want to hear~ but it is up to us to listen and to make choices for ourselves and not just because others think it is the right thing to do~but because we, ourselves,  think it is the right thing to do~

I would also caution you to poisons of what you see~ for I believe we can be easily manipulated into a common voice by only getting facts from one source.  We must do our due diligence and make sure we have a clear understanding of the facts from many different places~

It is easy to feel helpless and complain about all that is wrong in our world but it is a lot harder to stand for something~ anything, decide what you think is right and just have a voice~ say what you think and join the conversation~ 

Sparks

There are fireworks again tonight~

Hold me firmly in place by your captivating illumination.

Let me feel the stirring of exhilaration as I am touched by your glorious exhibition.

Ignite the night and bring me to the edge of my senses.

Make me shutter as you roar triumphantly in a brilliant flash of sizzling sparks.

Let me waft the haze of the charred sky and drink in its luminous intoxication.

Feel my heart quicken as your impulsive rocket burst repetitively, lost in a deafening boom.

There are fireworks again tonight~