Saturday, December 19, 2015

Changes

The sun is in retreat and the weather is turning colder.

Change is all around us as a new season cautiously approaches.

No matter if you are ready or not... the change is coming.  You should prepare.

It is time to gather all that you need to endure the next phase.

It is time to put away the warm weather clothes and drag out the warmest of wardrobes to endure the upcoming chill.

It is time to take stock in supplies needed to make it through the cold times ahead.  It is also the time snuggle and wrap yourself in the ones that you love.

Prepare yourself for change my friends for this event is inevitable...

Wednesday, November 25, 2015

The Lost Ones

Loss is a hard thing and you will never recover from it.  I know what people say, that things will get easier or that you will get over it, but I believe those are just words.  Those words have no meaning when it comes to loss.

Loss creates a void that cannot be filled.  It is a hole, you can try stepping around it or creating a path over it but the reality is that it will always be there, no matter how much you try to move over it.

Creating a path over the hole can allow you to move forward and the further you travel away from the hole may allow you to not think about it as much, but you know it is there.

The more loss we have, the more holes we have.  We spend our lives creating paths away from these holes.  It is time to look back and embrace the fact that loss changes you.  It is also the time to share memories of those you have lost, for memories tie us to the love ones.

We need a little love right now so be brave and share a memory with me...


Sunday, November 15, 2015

True Evil

In light of the latest violence in the world, it makes you wonder why there is such a disregard for human life.

I am saddened and appalled by what I see in the news.  I cringe at the media trying to find an angle to lure us into their ratings war.  Everyone is coming out of the woodwork spouting half-truths to justify their own causes and agendas.

 No one seems to care that innocent lives were lost and these tragedies keep happening.

We are quick to label the killers as evil but we fail to find fault in ourselves for what is happening in the world.  We seem to put more value on pushing our truth than remembering what was lost.

It seems that human lives have value but the amount of value depends on your address.  Why are Western lives lost at a premium and others are merely numbers on a tally board?

This will not change over night but we need to stop seeing the world with a blind eye and open wide to see the truth.

Once the truth is revealed, are you willing to make sacrifices in order to make a real change in the world?

Sunday, November 8, 2015

The Masterpiece

After slaying my week's worth of dragons, I find solitude in the most unlikely place, my kitchen.

I am so involved and lost when I am cooking and by the time, the dis is done, I feel like I am part of the dish.

I feel like my soul literally connects to it.  I do not talk and no one is allowed to be in the kitchen when I cook.  It is a meditative process.  So much in flow of the procedure.  I forget the world and become one with it.

My creations are only limited by my imagination and the ingredients I have on hand.

There is something therapeutic of creating a culinary masterpiece even if the end result isn't that magnificent. It is the journey and not the destination...

Friday, October 16, 2015

The Pause

Life can keep you pretty busy.

It seems that you buckle down, put your nose to the grindstone, and work as hard as you can and you pause, take a moment to look up~the world jumped forward a few days.

You are living in an everlasting loop of mundane tasks and if you are not careful you will forget to live and just exist.

Take a moment and enjoy the pauses and before long you will jumping forward to the next pause.

And over time, you will reverse your time so that your work becomes the pauses and you start living in the loop of your life, the real moments that count....

Work hard, but play harder...we never know how much time we have to enjoy the loop...

Saturday, October 3, 2015

Decrescendo of Drizzle

How much faith can you put into a weather forecast?  I am starting to think no much at all.

 I cancelled all my plans this weekend because it was going to be the storm of the century and I feel a little let down.

The predicted torrents of precipitation have only materialized into a decrescendo of drizzle.  All of my fantastic planning scraped for what I thought was a reliable certainty, a wash out.

Please don't think my disappointed nature means that I think my weekend was ruined, actually the opposite occurred because of my cancelled plans.

I have been surrounded by a comfy blanket, warm fire, bottomless cup a tea, and a good book...it just isn't where I thought I was end up but thanks to misdirected forecast, I realize I am exactly where I need to be...

So how much faith can you put into a weather forecast~ or anything for that matter~ believe it or not~ in the end you will wind up exactly where you need to be...




Sunday, September 13, 2015

Reach Out

Sometimes it is difficult to stay in touch with those that are far away from you.  

You have to make reducing the gap between you a priority in your life or you will feel that distance tenfold. 

I think we are all surviving out there in the real world and we can feel alone inside ourselves but we keep solidering on alone, failing to reach out to others.

We keep our hands by our sides because it is easier and we can get the job done faster.  I believe that is true, but in the end, we will feel the burden of doing it alone.  

I have been so focused on being present in my life that I have let some distance creep up between us.   
Please know this was not a purposeful occurrence, but still neglectful on my part. 

 I got lost in my own mission and wish now that it had been ours to follow together.  I have to learn to reach out because I know now that your hand will always be reaching towards mine...

Saturday, September 5, 2015

Escape

Your world is crashing down in front of you and you have about 10 minutes to grab everything you will need to leave...what would you pack? What do you need to survive?

I hope we are never in this situation but it is best to be prepared.

I am one of those people that already have a bag packed and ready to go but what do I have in it...just the basics...


  1. Cash- I figure you can use that just about anywhere 
  2. Change of clothes which includes a pair of comfy shoes- I don't need a wardrobe!
  3. Important Documents- I keep them in a portable fire safe that can be easily moved
  4. Medicine- Gotta bring the drugs!
  5. Food/Water- I have energy bars and water.

Sentimental stuff- I decided that some pictures can't be replaced so I think I will scan them so that I will always have them in the cloud...let's hope where I am heading there will be wifi...

What about the rest....I am sure I am forgetting something..


Sunday, August 30, 2015

The Playlist

What is your favorite song?

People have asked me that question many times and I usually avoid answering it because I don't really think I have a favorite, but should I have a favorite?

Does the song I pick define who I am?

Who am I? ...that is always a good question...I guess I am a collection of different songs and they run the gambit of emotions...

Maybe this music will tell you who I am today...

Lose Yourself by Eminem
Don't Stop Believing by Journey
Eye of the Tiger by Survivor
Tears in Heaven by Eric Clapton
In the End by Linkin Park
Demons by Imagine Dragons
Boulevard of Dreams by Green Day
Truly Madly Deeply-Savage Garden
Second Chance by Shinedown

...but you should know that my playlist never ends and it is always evolving, so maybe one day I will have a favorite, but for now let's just listen...together




Sunday, July 26, 2015

Sandstorm

We were friends~ a lifetime ago...

The world never seemed quite right until I had a chance to talk you.  You were my everything.  I could count on you. I  knew I could take a deep breath in and knew I would hear you let it out, we were as one, single sight and single mind.

I held you close inside the walls that surrounded me.  We were safe.  We were happy.  We sipped the essence of our friendship as though it was eternal but who knew it could  have evaporated so easily.

I look back now and I don't know how we got to where we are today.  When did everything start slipping away?

One grain of sand at time, falling unnoticed until it is too late...and all that was is just a thought...because we were friends~ a lifetime ago...


Monday, July 20, 2015

Great Power

You, my friend, have great power and I am not sure you know it.

You can bring the strongest of men to their knees.

You can elevate a coward to a fierce champion.

You can fashion love to enchant any heart or incite enough hate to destroy any enemy.

You can conquer any fear or distinguish any hope.

What is the power you possess?

It is the power of words...any thing is possible, so use them wisely, my friend..

Saturday, July 4, 2015

Fireworks

It is fireworks tonight.

I am held firmly in place by your captivating illumination.

Exhilarating feelings stir within as I am touched by your glorious exhibition.  

I shutter as you roar triumphantly in a brilliant flash of sizzling sparks.

My heartbeat quickens as your impulsive rocket burst repetitively only to be lost in a deafening boom.

I waft the haze of the charred sky, drinking in its luminous intoxication.

Ignite the night and bring me to the edge of my senses for tonight it is fireworks...

Friday, July 3, 2015

Wishes

I was asked today if I had three wishes what would they be...I wonder if you can wish for more wishes?

What would they be...there are so many ways you can answer this.

You could be selfless and wish for cures, lessen crime and hate, or even end wars.

You could be selfish and wish for fame, fortune, or fornication.

You could be something in between selfless and selfish and wish good things for yourself and others.

I am afraid I would not use my wishes...what would the world looked like if it were altered?  Would I recognize it?   I believe I am who I am because of my experiences, good or bad and if I change those experiences...who would I be then?

The Race

I never wanted my life to be a race.  Life just seemed to happen that way.

I started out moving to get away from little things, to deal with them later.

Soon I found myself dodging larger obstacles and my pace began to quicken.

Before long, I am running from everything that has happened this year and I don't seem to have the time to look back.

I know everything will catch up with me very soon but I am afraid of what I will discover when I slow down.

I know can't keep up this pace much longer and I can't out run my life no matter how fast I believe I am.

I must stop...

Saturday, June 20, 2015

Still revolving

Looking back I have not changed much. I still stand upon the same foundation and I am still wrapped in the same packaging although it may be slightly altered.  I am very loyal and I do not understand those who are unfaithful.

I invited you into my world once and I shared my core. If you do not like what you see, be upfront and honest, this is the time to walk away.
My universe is a circular path that is inviting and continuous.  I am surrounded by people, these are the voices that have reached out to me or those that have pulled me towards them.  I know each by name and tidbits of his or her reality. The few satellites that revolve around me are transfixed and keep me grounded.

My friends lift me up when I fall and I am always reaching out so they they do not stumble.  It is in this game of Clue where I learn who has my back and who has the knife.

My world is tiered, layered to protect all I hold dear. Through this rabbit hole, the journey advances through passages that debate life's twist and turns, challenge every fiber of being, and encompass a spectrum of emotions.

This is where undressing begins and we strip down to who we are and deliberate if we are willing to take the next step.

We have time to explore each other on this shared journey.  Time to make mistakes, learn, and grown beyond what we can imagine.  I see you for all that you are and all that you will be and I am with you unconditionally.

I kneel in the center of my world because I have not lost the gravity of the situation, I am here because of all of you.  We hold each other together...



Saturday, June 13, 2015

Lip-lock

Why do we kiss?  It is not practiced in all cultures so it can’t be in our genes or at least the scientific ones.
 I am not sure anyone really knows the true reasons behind why we play tonsil-hockey~ Kissing may just be a behavior that defies explanation~ of course there are a lot of them out there.

 I have heard that we associate passionate kissing with finding a good mate.  I mean if he can curl your toes with a little smooch~ it may trigger “successful procreator” all way down to your ovaries.

 They say a woman can tell how she feels about a man by just one kiss~ I guess it is a subtle way to assess compatibility before she invests too much time and energy into him~ of course sometimes it takes a lot of practice to really know how you feel~

I don't know if I believe all this but I do know it feels damn good when done correctly and more research may be needed on this subject~

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

Giggles~



Did you know laughing is good for you?

Research shows that a good laugh can help protect your body from disease and helps to repair vital organs.  It can also decrease pressure and stress hormones, improve sleep patterns, boost your immune system, and improve memory and mental performance.  Wow~ all that from a tiny little giggle orgy~ who knew!

So it is time to roll out that belly laugh~because you have to stop taking life so seriously.  Surround yourself with people that know how to find the humor in life~ because just like a cold, laughter is contagious.

I bet if you can find a way to laugh once every day~ your mood will improve, not to mention the number of wet spots and I bet things will even seem less daunting~

So let's die laughing by rolling in the aisle and splitting our side~ let's chuckle, giggle, grin, howl, shriek, snicker, snort, roar and scream~ only on the days that end in "y".


Tuesday, June 2, 2015

The Fishbowl

Sometimes I feel like I am running in circles, working hard but not really getting anywhere.  

When I think about what topics I want to write about , I don't always feel inspired~ I worry that I am getting stuck and I am just writing about the same old things all the time, just dressed in different verses.

So, why do I still write...because no matter how insipid, uninspiring, or repetitive my words may be, they are still mine.    

I guess you write about what you know and yes, sometimes that means you get stuck in topic reruns, but that is no reason to stop~ it is a reason to soldier onward.

If you know me, you know I never stay on one topic too long before bouncing on to the next, so I might double back a few (thousand) times, but I am still moving, still imagining, still pondering things in this fishbowl world of mine...and even if I go nowhere fast~ it is still something, something worth writing about..

Sunday, May 31, 2015

The Perfect Cherry

I sit here eating a bowl of fresh cherries.

They are all different in shading, shape, and stem size.  I look each one over for imperfections before slipping it pass my lips and laying it on my tongue.  There I feel the firmness before I gently bite down, to sample the sweetness.

After examining each one so thoroughly, I have discovered that not every one tasted as sweetly as I imagined, some were downright bitter.

I wonder how much time we spend looking for something so perfect on the outside, only to be disappointed at what you find inside.

I am about half way through my bowl of cherries and I have learned that you can not pick the perfect cherry by looks alone, you need a little luck.

If you are lucky, then maybe you will find the sweetness you desire.

Dawn of Discovery

Are you happy?  Do you even know what it means?

As we grow, what makes us happy changes.  Will your compass ever point to the exact moment you were content with who you are?

If you have achieved this inner peace, should still look for more?  Is what you have the best it will ever be...or is there something more?

You are the only one who can answer these questions.  You have to know who you are and what makes you content, or happy because the discovery is all yours.

I wish I could give you guidance, but I struggle with the same question myself.

 I am always looking to find something, only to discover it wasn't what I was looking for and I have learned to be happy with what I have.
I enjoy the adventure but I always wonder is there more to be discovered...

Sunday, May 24, 2015

Ticking Time

Hear the seconds tick away...see the clock hands circle around and around.  Time, it is always moving, never stopping...How much time do we have?

How many years, months, days, hours, minutes and seconds do we have left?  How will you spend your time?  I don't know if I would want to know the answer.  Just live.

Live with no regrets.  Live knowing you always tried your best.
Live turning the other cheek or just walking away from trouble. Live with love and most of all just live...

We never know when the clock will stop, so keep listening for the ticks...

Saturday, May 9, 2015

Cascade

On days like today, I just want to let the shower to run...washing over me, with a hot, cleansing embrace.

I want to drown in the feeling of sanctuary as the water tumbles downward.  I do not know what beckons me here.  I just know the comfort I feel from the percussion of cascading water.

I let the water run until the heat no longer presents itself and my skin begins to tire.  A blanket of steam caresses the room in a cocoon of warmth.

It is only then when I feel restored...

Wednesday, April 29, 2015

Unrest

There have been so many acts of violence lately that it really makes you wonder what is going on with the world nowadays.

In my neck of the woods, there was rioting earlier this week.  I understand frustration but not hurting others or destroying property to get some point across~ which if you haven't notice~ was lost in the noise.

I guess people with power are always destined to abuse it and I think that is what we are seeing.

Those who are not being heard are lashing out~ but do you really think change is going to come?

I am leery because I don't think there is a true solution to our current problems.  Sure, we can put a band-aid on it~ but that is no real fix~people would have to actually change~ and I don't think we are willing to do that just to make someone else's life a little better~

It really is a shame....

Tuesday, April 21, 2015

The Game of Life

Do we get complacent if life?

I guess there is a comfort in the predictability of things, knowing what to expect.

I think we strive for some sense of routine but are we happy when we get what we think we want?

For me, it seems as soon as I get to a place where I start feeling comfortable with life, I collide and everything that was so settled is now shaken up.

It seems that my life is but a game of perfection, fast-moving, popping fun which always borders on frustration, but yet, I still play...

I just need to accept that fact that I can not determine the exact path my life.

I cannot predict the hurdles or the straightaways.  I just have to learn to enjoy the ride...


Thursday, March 26, 2015

Stormy Night

I could hear the rain slowly thumping against the outside of the tent. The cool breeze made me shiver slightly and I pulled the sleeping bag around me a little tighter. I listened to the rhythm of the falling drops until a clap of thunder shook the very edge of my pounding heart. I darted upward and clutch the sleeping bag tightly. I closed my eyes as the rain hammered relentlessly.  My rigid body filled with unbridled fear from the passing storm.

I must have screamed in terror because you suddenly appeared in my tent. I was rocking back and forth and I know you could feel my fear as you slipped your arm around me tightly and rested your chin on the top of my head. You whispered my name breathlessly against my cheek and lowered your lips toward mine...

Your imagination is worth more than the words I can write...take it to the edge and find your own inspiration...

Saturday, March 21, 2015

Embrace the Chaos

Why do you work so hard?

Do you love what you so passionately that you can't get enough of it or do you just want to earn more money so you can meet your financial needs or are you helping someone out?

You have to ask yourself, "Is it worth it?" You should look around and ask yourself if you need everything you are working so hard to buy.  You might consider downsizing.

You should not neglect yourself.  You need to treat yourself to something that brings your joy.  You cannot sacrifice your present in hopes for a future.  What if it never comes?  What will you have then?  Future dreams may fall short of your expectations because you are avoiding the present and not really building for what may be.

Are you alone because you are not making time for a relationship?  Don't get lost in a larger than life world and forget that you are a part of something larger than yourself.   Step away from work and fully detach from it~ be fully present in your something else.  Sometimes this means saying no~ this does not make us selfish, it make us survivors in our own skin.

To be well balanced you need to trust your gut and adjust as you go, get plenty of rest and most importantly reach out~ and embrace the chaos...




Friday, March 13, 2015

Say What?

Have you ever been in a situation where you didn't know what to say to someone's negative comment or you think of an awesome comeback, however is a day or two later?

I am usually on my toes and I can dish out what is dealt to me, but occasionally I don't know how to respond.

So I made a list of some comebacks I will be using at a later date....

  1. If everywhere you go there's a problem...Guess what?
  2. You should really come with a warning label.
  3. Please cancel my subscription to your issues.
  4. Who ate your bowl of sunshine this morning, thundercloud?
  5. Before you judge me, make sure you google yourself.
  6. Some people create their own storms and then upset when it rains.
  7. I guess if you spoke your mind, you'd be speechless.
  8. Don't judge me, I was born to be awesome...not perfect.
  9. Actions prove who someone is, words just prove who they want to be.
  10. Where's your off button?
  11. I didn't know you were an expert on my life and how I should live it.  Continue while I take notes.
  12. Some people should use a glue stick instead of chapstick.
  13. It is funny how the people who know me the least have the most to say.

Of course, when I probably need one of these comebacks, I won't be able to reach it...only time will tell.

Friday, March 6, 2015

Miss Winter

It is almost spring, but winter is fighting for its right to be the dominate season here.

Even though I am ready for warmer temperatures, I will miss the beauty of winter.  Freezing rain transforms my world into a beautiful ice sculpture.  The sunshine glistens like a spotlight over the artwork as it melts into a symphony of raindrops.

I am still in awe of a freshly snow-covered landscape.  It seems like the world is caught in a giant snow-globe for a bit and even time seems to  stands still and the surrounding sounds are muted until the world starts digging itself out.

I have spent a lot of time removing ice and snow lately and frankly, I am ready for a warmup but I will always miss winter when it is gone...





Saturday, February 28, 2015

This Dress

Is this dress white & gold or blue & black?  

OMG, I can't believe how many people are almost at blows over this dress....so what color do you see?  

I saw blue & brownish-black the first time I saw the picture and all my friends saw white & gold. 

 I was sure that they were punkin' me or playing a trick.  


When I looked at the picture of the dress the next day, I finally saw the white & gold and now I am convinced there is a trick somewhere...maybe it is a great illusion...

I guess we can all see the same object but how we interpret things can be very different...but that is what makes this world so colorful...

Saturday, February 21, 2015

Snow Sense

I don't know what happens to drivers when there is a little snow on the ground, they have some sort of snow-lobotomy and completely forget how to drive.

Maybe it isn't that people forget how to drive as much as it's that those horrible drivers stick out more in snow and ice.

You have the drivers that follow to closely, they are practically kissing your bumper.  I am always temped to slam on my brakes but we all know what kinds of chaos that would cause...

I think the most dangerous people are the ones who ignore the weather conditions and drive like they always do... I mean four wheel drive doesn't mean you are a Indy 500 racer!  I don't mean you should travel 5 mph but keep it reasonable..

So when you see the snow...slow down, leave enough space between cars, and always bring your common sense...or wait until spring...drive carefully out there!!

Saturday, February 14, 2015

Time for Love

I guess I am not a traditional girl when it comes to Valentine's Day.  

I see all the pressure put on men  to buy flowers, cards, chocolate, balloons, stuffed animals and jewelry. Why? ...to show that they love you.  

I don't want to see your love on one day with some gifts wrapped in pink and red.  I want to feel your love everyday of the year and twice on Sundays when my football team wins.  

So, I am saying NO to all those gifts and I don't want anything but you today.  

Let's reject this day created by companies that want to earn a profit and accept they we are lucky to have found each other and let's find the profit in that...

Let's spend time together doing something we both enjoy. Let's bring each other unexpected gifts spontaneously throughout the year and let's celebrate our love on a daily basis...

 Will you be mine all 365 1/4th days of the year?


Wednesday, February 4, 2015

Acceptance

I feel like your punching bag...

Your words hit like a fist and now you say that you are sorry.

I can accept your version of things, that I am to blame for everything.. for reality always has two sides.  

I can accept that you are hurt and that you are sorry for what you said. 

I can accept that you didn't mean to beat me to the ground with your words. I know that was not your intention but I have to believe that you say what you mean and you meant what you said.    

I can accept and I can forgive. 

I don't know if I can stop hurting and I don't know if I should be accepting everything that happened but I can only try... forgiveness is not as hard as forgetting and only time will tell...

I am cryptic and lost and I still feel like your punching bag...but today is better than yesterday and I can only look forward to a better tomorrow.

My Ally

Something that made me think today...

Words have the power to build or break, to decimate or make.  If words are chosen carefully, they can make you the most powerful person on the face of the earth.

Thoughtless words hurt and cause pain.  They break relationships and bring no gain.  Even if your intentions are not bad, a poor choice of words can drive people away from you and cause much damage.

I have always thought of my words as my ally.  They have always been there when I needed them. They bring me strength and courage. They show me hope and love.

I hold them close for I do know the power of words and how easily they can betray...with great power comes great responsibility...

Sunday, February 1, 2015

Goodbye

The Goodbye Letter:

My heart aches for you.  I am tortured with thoughts of you, and though I am sometimes convinced that these feelings have faded, each and every time I fall in love with you again.  This is a horrible things to live with, the love I have for you.  I know that it will never in this lifetime be returned.  Sometimes I can live with that, but other times I cannot.  I truly feel that no matter who you end up with, and I am certain that it will not be me, that this person will NEVER hold the love for you that I do.


You mean everything to me, everything.  Yet, I mean nothing to you. Tell me, if I meant anything to you, even my friendship, why do you disrespect me?  Why do you continue to degrade me?  What I have for you is very precious, and not everyone in this world can say that there is someone out there who sticks by them, through thick and thin.


Don't expect me to answer your calls every time and listen to your problems or what's going on with your life.  Don't look forward to anything from me anymore.  And please understand, I am not doing this to teach you a lesson.  I am doing this because I am finally done with you.  I am just fed up, and my heart can't take it anymore.  I cannot continue loving someone who can't even appreciate my feelings for them.


You are selfish, and you don't deserve the love I have to offer.  You don't deserve love from anyone in this world.


These words are full of hurt...remember the person on the other side of the keyboard is human too...


Saturday, January 31, 2015

Trailblazing

Have you ever just skimmed or scanned a post instead of spending time to read everything?

I have found myself doing that a lot more lately.  I guess I do not find value in the words presented before me or I am just eager to find out the ending instead of taking time to following the path of words the author laid out for me.

We are living in a world of instant gratification.  We want everything faster and we have no patience to wait.  What is this doing to us?

We still the same amount of hours in the day but we are always feeling like we do not have enough time.  We need to learn to have patience and take the time to embrace quality of life.  We need to take the time to read without taking shortcuts.  We will always be looking for the quick fix but knowing when to take the long path is the key to finding quality over quantify...happy trailblazing!


Wednesday, January 28, 2015

Cherry Dieded


Cherry had a good, happy, and richly varied life, which we can barely scratch the surface in our short tribute to Cherry.  

Above anything, she loved to laugh and she was notorious for her infectious smile.  She was a people person and truly shined when she was with her friends.  Cherry was sarcastic to a fault and found the wittiness of people intoxicating.  She was loyal to the ones she cared about and would always be there for them. 

She wasn't always the perfect daughter and she got into her share of trouble, but she loved her family fiercely even if it meant to love them enough to stay away. 

She strived to find success in her life and at the end I am sure she finally found what she was looking for.  We will miss her but we will know she is never far from our thoughts.  We will smile when we hear the Vikings have won or see the waves crash on the shore of a beach...remember to live the life you want~ what would your Eulogy say...

Monday, January 26, 2015

Hitting Rock Bottom

We are taught that strength is good and a person who is perceived as strong is successful.

So, we start to make ourself strong and we become rocks.  We workout so that our bodies are solid and hard as a rock.  We expect our men to show no weakness to be strong, to be our rock.  We take comfort in our strength because we are strong, but are we really?

Throughout our lifetime, we have moments of strength and weakness.  You must have rocks in your head if you don't see that.  You have to dwell in the weakest parts of yourself in order to appreciate your own strength because when you see a rock coming, it hurts less.  We should not strive to be strong but to understand our weaknesses.

We are only what we have the strength to perceive.  We are rocks.

Saturday, January 24, 2015

Blocked

I have't really had much to write about lately.  I guess I was looking at updating my blog as a chore and not a treat.

I got lost in the demand.  I had to remind myself why I stop here and reflect, why I write and what it does for me...this is really all I needed to do.

 I stop here to share a part of myself as I reflect on events in my life.  I write because I have something to say, even if it is about nothing at all and I enjoy my time here.  I have always found strength in words, but I am a little shy in the real world, and sometimes my words get lost.

Not a lot of people know that about me, but online I can share the words I really feel and people can know me in a way that I don't share with very many out there.

 This is where my voice can be heard, even if it is just in my own room.  I have written this before, I don't write for you, I write for me~ It is my strength...

Wednesday, January 14, 2015

Hiding in the Shadows

I really do not understand those chatters that like to hide in the shadows with another name or pretend to be someone else.

 I mean don't you go to chat to talk to people you know, why all the games?  You lurk in background, but why?  What do you get from it?

 I don't like the idea of someone spying.

If you want to know what I am doing , where I am going, or who I am talking too you can ask and you do not have to resort to such foolishness.

I guess the people that imp are in this category of pretending to be someone else.  I know it happens but again, why?

I am not trying to be a hypocrite because I have done this.  I have changed my name in chat and pretended to be someone else but I never was happy with people not knowing who I was and I guess that is why I just don't understand and it feels dishonest to me.

I am sure you are going to do what you want, lurk in the shadows and/or pretend to be someone else. As you can see, it leaves me with more questions....why?

 I just wanted you to know that I definitely do not like it.