Have you ever been a little scared to accomplish something you have been wanting to do for a long time? I have been feeling that way for a while now.
I have been putting a lot of effort in over coming a major obstacle in my life and I can finally see the finish line just over the next hill~ but instead of running at full force...I have been taking a meandering stroll...trying to enjoy the last bit of freedom before I reach my goal.
I am starting to second guess my decisions but I keep reminding myself that this is what I wanted to do...now all this hesitation has got me thinking...and everyones knows that can be a dangerous thing...and it all comes down to me really being afraid~ do I take a step forward or do I take a new path~
I know I will figure this out~ I just wish I could see the future just a little bit~ just a glimpse...so I can be more confident in my decision...so I guess it is time to put on the kettle and make some spiced tea~ at least I can stay warm~ even if my thoughts are a little cold...
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ever think it's not all about you. after all these years, others might be running away from you? curious.
LOL~ funny that you think that~ I will give you a response in my next post...
Yes you are running away, granted u made a new life, but yet u cling onto a virtual life. Letting two guys u met through a laptop, will stop there. You are defiant, which is good, moving away? You think that makes you cool? Any could do that by getting an airline ticket. Yes get to know Geo and meta....sure a 31 year old teacher.
You are right to say I am clinging to an online world~ I do ask myself "why"~ but it isn't for a love connection because I do not have that kind of relationship with anyone online~ I really do like getting to know people~ as friends~ and I never think of myself as "cool"~ I just live my life...and write about it here~ but remember I only share part of myself with the online world~ so do you think you really know me at all?
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