A New Place

Sometimes a change of scenery can help you see things in a different way.

 I like to slip away to different places to think.  I love to go to places around my house, like the park.  I have spent many a day on the top of the slide just looking up at the sky, thinking about something big.

I also like to go to the beach because there is something soothing about the crashing of waves and a roar of surf.  I guess the cold really wouldn't keep me away this time of year.  I adore the ocean and the dialog.

I have traveled a lot lately to visit family.  It is a new place to think about upcoming changes.  There is a new year upon us and there are so many paths one can take in life.  It is hard to know which one is the best until you have taken a few steps.  I don't want to get caught up in too much planning or too much thinking.  I do miss the park and ocean and I can't wait to get back home.

Holiday Test

During the holidays, everyone is in such a hurry to get somewhere.  It seems like everyone is everywhere I want to be. 

The stores are filled up with too many elbows and handbags.  The bank has empty money machines or they are just holding on to it for their own consumption.  The roads are stuffed with greedy drivers filled with road rage and even the airport is crowded with last minute flyers, suitcases and strollers galore.

It is almost like you have to be a princess warrior to get want you want.  You have to hunt with such ease and cunning to get out with your life.  You have to bob and weave around unexpected turns.  You have to be prepared to wait and be patient.  During those times, I choose to watch others,  to observe my surroundings.  I have noticed that you can learn a lot by just watching others.  You may not notice me but be sure that I will notice you.  ~Smirkles~

End of the World

People keep claiming the end of the world is near and when that day comes and we are still here.

They give an excuse or just say there was a mistake and change the date to another end of the world.  I believe people experience the end of the world at different times. 

When we lose something very dear to us, our world is shaken and what we know ends.  Our lives are speckled with many endings and we still must move forward.  Our world may look different and unrecognizable but we will transform ourselves into something new, something that feels right. This may take a lot of time so we must be patient and strong.  Look towards others for strength and direction when your world is shattered.  I do not think anyone can accurately determine when the end of your world will be.  

Rebirth

I have shed a lot of tears over the past few months.  I would not say that I was sad or depressed, just that I am alert and observant of life.  There are a lot of things to notice that are worthy of tears.  I try not to wrap myself up in those feelings of helplessness.  I cry to move on and to become stronger.  I cry to feel happy again.  I cry because not all tears are sad.  I new year is upon me and I feel less like crying.  I feel stronger and fuller.  I know I will be fine because I have decided to start blogging publicly again.  I don't have to write in secret.  I can open myself up to others and face all that comes my way.  I started this blog to show the life of a chatter and then it became much more to me.  Thank you for reading and spending time with me.  I hope we can become friends again.

For Me

I have been away for awhile. I look back through old posts and hardly recognize the places I have been. I guess being away has given me the chance to move past a lot of stuff. I am figuring out what I want and who I am. I get stronger day by day. I am determined to reach my goals. I believe that you can overcome a lot when you put your whole heart into something. I am not here to entertain you or change your thinking. I am here to write down my thoughts no matter how crazy they are at times. I am here for me.

Discovery

I have been in and out of the online world for a bit now. I have discovered many things about myself and the others around me. I guess I have found that I do not like person I have become in this world. I have shut a lot of people out and surrounded myself with what might have beens. I am in a different place right now. People say you have to hit bottom before you can start reaching for the top again. I truly believe I have reached that plateau. I have changed a lot of things since my last post. I guess my thinking about the world is the the one thing I have changed the most. I have to face what I fear and move past what I have created to stand in my way. I am stronger than I thought. I have a lot of regrets but I can't dwell on those. I have to be responsible for me and allow others to be responsible for themselves. I have to fix me before I can allow anyone else in to share who I am. The darkness that surrounds me is fading and I see hope on the other side as I look toward my future. I won't be gone forever but less often is best for me now. I hope for you is the best of what you are seaching for in your path of discovery.

Standing on Solid Ground

Sometimes you step down on things and you cannot keep your balance. You have a few choices, you can move more slowly and try not to fall or you can simply fall and get yourself up again.