One Fatal Mistake

I remember begging my mother to let me have a pet of my very own when I was younger. I promised to care for it and be responsible. She always refused because she said I was too young.

After continuous pleading, I finally convinced her to let me take home my class pet guinea pig for a weekend. I was determined to show her my responsible side.

I made sure he had everything he needed and I even made time to play with him everyday. I forgot the close the door all the way, and the terrier got in the room while I was playing with guinea pig.

This was my one fatal mistake. The terrier attacked the guinea pig and all I can remember doing is trying to separate them. It happened so fast and I tried so hard but I couldn't stop the terrier. My screams alerted my mother and she was there before I could think to call her. I learned what responsibility was that day.

I had to face everyone knowing I wasn't ready for the task I volunteers to undertake. I had blood on my hands and I was so mad at the world. I blamed everyone for my mistake. It took me a long time to forgive.

I think about that day sometimes, about how much pain occurred because I was careless and didn't think. You hold many lives within your hands, be careful who you let in.

Leaping Through Time

I once watched an Anime about a girl who leaped through time. She found this gadget one day that gave her the ability to change things in her life. In the movie (spoiler alert), she got the power from her future self. I have always wondered, how her future self obtain the object if she got it in the past from her future self... Now that is a mind loop~

What would you do with such a gadget? Would you use it to change things in your past? Would you just leave it alone? I guess there are things in our pasts that we are not proud of...but should we change them?

I would be very tempted to save a loved one, prevent a catastrophic event or even divert an innocent from a future of darkness. However, I would be afraid that change would create a whole new world for us. It is like the devil you know is better than the devil that you do not know.

I wonder if you changed a small thing about yourself, would you still be you? We are who we are because of the experiences we have gone through~ both the good and the bad. I believe that no matter how tragic the past has been~ changing it would only make things worse.

daffodil

I have a patch of flowers in my yard that bloom at the beginning of Spring. I love the beauty of the rich, yellow blossoms, but soon after they bloom, they quickly die. The dried dead leaves are always so troubling to me.

I decided to remove the pesky little blooms so I dug all up and put them behind my back fence. The next year when the weather grew warmer, the bright yellow flowers bloomed again, not as many as before but still an army of yellow.

Again, I removed the limp flowers and reunited them with the previous bunch. This year, a few more poked up to smile upon my yard. My nemesis prevailed yet again. I don't think I will remove these this year.

I have a field of yellow blooms near my back fence and gentle reminder of nature's resilience in my front yard.

As I feel the warm sunshine on my face, and see the slow rebirth of the green ground, I will always remember the yellow flowers that flourish in spite of great obstacles in its path, even if it is for a limited time. I just need to be thankful that I got to enjoy them at all.

Serving Up Haters

Do you think you have the right to say whatever you want?

I guess if you believe in free speech that means you have to allow people to say what they want, even if you do not like what they say. It may seem like it protects the haters but when you start deciding where the line is...then the freedom is lost.

I don't like all the things that I hear but I would never risk not letting people say what they want about any topic. I can choose to ignore or even walk away if I am bothered too much.

It is very difficult at times, to just ignore but sometimes you have have to man or woman up! So let the hate spill out, for freedom's sake but let me use my umbrella of common sense to protect myself from the words I do not like.

Let freedom ring and the tongues wag!

Letters

People don't write long paper and pen/pencil letters anymore. I mean the sit down with a pen/pencil and actually push the ink across the page.

I miss the feel of the pen in my hand and the color streaked across the bottom of my hand because of the multiple copies I had to do to get the words and handwriting to seem perfect. I also miss putting the letter in an envelope and the nasty flavor that greets your tongue on the flip side, the glittering of the stickers that you put on the back to seal the not-so-sticky flap and picking the stamps to go with the holiday or color of the envelope.

But most of all, I miss the joy of receiving a letter that someone enjoyed writing to you as much as you enjoyed getting it. I miss checking for tokens and cash and reading it over and over again and patiently waiting for the another one to arrive.

Lucky Day

Well, I am thinking the luck comes from being able to drink nonstop and call it a holiday!!!

I know that people celebrate in many ways. I heard this was one of the highest alcohol consumption days in the United States and most of it is green! (taste great or less filling?)

I heard they color the Chicago River green~ it makes you wonder what the fish think about that.

In Texas, they have a rattlesnake round up...there are no snakes in Ireland, I think because St. Patrick drove them out~ beating the ground to rid the snakes!

I think everyone else parties~ so eat, drink and be merry!

No matter how you celebrate, be safe and have fun~ Happy St. Patrick's Day, ya'll!

Guilty Pleasure

Around this time of year you hear about more spiritual people giving up things until Easter.

In support of all the lenters out there, I thought I would give something up as well...

I don't have a lot of guilty pleasures, but here is a list of my possibilities...

* Chai Tea
* BOB
* Frozen strawberry drinks
* Colorful fingernail polish
*Running beneath the stars
*iPod Apps
* Drinks with cherries
* Rocking out in my truck or at the park