Impostors!

I have noticed an insurgence of impostors in the chat room lately. I am not sure if they think people are so dumb that they don't know they are impostors or they really don't care because they are poking fun at someone. Sometime I think they are comical and at others I want to ignore the pesky little buggers. I have to admit they seem to have mad skills because I can barely chat in the main lobby and whisper at the same time. I am all for having fun but I have to wonder at what expense. I do have one more question. What does it mean to "bust a nut"? I guess I am innocent (don't choke on your drink) when it comes to some things!

From Muffins to Madness:Part 1

It has been really been a wild ride today (3 posts so far). I had an opportunity to be out of town this weekend. I was invited to a weekend on the party boat, which is really a group of friends fishing, swimming, drinking and basking in the sun. Now why did I turn down this sweet sounding trip?

It had a lot to do with the "friends" who had been invited. One in particular, we have a bad history together and frankly I didn't want to deal with the drama. I was really excited about being in the house alone this weekend. I picked out 3-4 books to read, bought some comfort food and planned on slacking all weekend long.

I started my alone time curled up with a nice book, something wickedly romantic. It ,of course was thrilling but not as exciting as I thought. I decided to do the very thing I was hoping to limit this weekend, my connection to the online world. UGH! Of course, I tell myself I am only going to check my email, which led to checking my status on Facebook, which led to updating my blog, which led to checking my PUB and then finally checking out the chat room and then checking into a new plan for the weekend.

From Muffins to Madness:Part 2

The day was wild ride. After convincing myself that chat is just like an interactive novel (again), I decided to just forget about everything and have a great time. I was rode hard and put away wet on Friday but it was a blast. Fun friends (wink~ some more fun than others) and good conversation (and good meaning lots of flirting).

I chatted until the wee hours of the morning and then rested and returned in the morning. I was off and on during the day. I took time to do some cleaning, laundry and swimming. Even the best of all slackers need to get some exercise.

Let me share some of my favorite things from the chatting. I got to see the Admin again. I thought I would be nice and do my usual cyber baking. I made muffins (one of my favorite comfort foods). Then "mmmmmmmmmm muffins" appeared at the end of everything written the room. This lasted for a long time. It seemed that most people enjoyed this. They were typing such things as I would like to touch your (and *mmmmmmmmm~muffins* would follow). After the muffin craze was over a few people thought I was responsible. Like I have that kind of power.

I got to chat with people I have only heard about as well. It was nice meeting some of the other regulars even though I am sure they don't know who I am.

From Muffins to Madness:Part 3

This is still a wild ride. There were a lot of good things about my slacker chat weekend but there was also things that were not so great. I don't know how people can chat like I did this weekend and not be affected. I was people deprived being home alone, sleep deprived (running on less than 4 hours of sleep) and maybe even sense deprived (holding a personal chat record with myself).

Whatever it was, it took me to a few low place. I was doing the usual chat. I was flirting a little but really nothing compared to the previous night. Caution: High School Drama ahead:

I got between a so-called chat couple. The guy started chatting me up and the girl got extremely jealous or was pretending to be and then it turned real, really fast. I become the bitch whore slut who is always taking other peoples bfs. The guy asked me if he should be allowed to talk to me and his gf in a public place. I of course said, yes because all we were doing was chatting in full view of everyone. It wasn't like there was anything happening. I had no idea this guy had any attachments to girls in the room and his talking to me was in no way my fault unless I am faulted for responding. I do not ask guys if they are in a committed relationship when I am just saying hey hi. I believe gfs should trust their guys and if they are proven to be jerks then break up. This was not like I knew they were a couple and I was trying to "get" him. She was just mad because he was paying me some attention instead of her.

Now, please know this stuff doesn't usually get to me but it is very close to the bad drama I was trying to avoid in real life. In the middle of this high school drama, I lost it. It was the madness of the day and the silence of the house. I stood among a room full of familiar strangers and no one was there for me. No one had my back. Fighting back tears, at the hate spinning around the room and the hurt and anger pulsing through me...I paused and made a choice. I wasn't going to let this be my end to chat.

I searched for just one friendly face and in that moment, I needed that more than anything and without it I would have been truly lost. I just need this time to get back on the horse, and gather my weapon of choice. I am not sure if anyone knew how those moments affected me or really cared but I hate to admit there is something real about this fake world of chat. I ended the day in the wee hours of the morning after several more exciting and crazy things happened but this adventure is already 3 posts. There is still one more day but I am trying to be less of a slacker.

The Hunt

I had an interesting conversation today about men and women. A fellow chatter claimed that women have all the power. What do you think? Do women run everything? On the surface, I would say he was completely wrong because men are still in charge of a lot of things. They make better wages and get promoted more often. It seems like to me that being the head of something make you more powerful than not . I do not think we were talking about the same kind of power. It is true that woman seem to have a lot of men chasing them on chat sites but if this means they are more powerful, then the only people to blame are men. How can I blame men? Easy enough...they are doing the chasing. Women know what men want is something they have and that is enough to shift the power balance. I could go into more detail but but I will save that for another chat room conversation. I think in the end, women need men to love, provide and protect them. I am not saying that this cannot be done be done without men but simply it is better when they are there. If men stopped and ignored women, then things would look differently. The girls would have to chase. That actually sounds fun...maybe I will spend some time chasing some guys =P

You are awesome!

I found this article the other day and it really made me smile. Would you pay to have someone call you every day and tell you that you are awesome? It is always great to hear that someone thinks you are awesome. I think I will see if it makes a difference in the way people act or respond to me if I tell them that they are awesome. Do you think that is why I come into chat everyday? I guess I would have to see. I probably should not experiment on people without their permission so let me know if you want to be my little science experiment. C'mon you know you are awesome! Let me prove it to you...

Swinging

It is always difficult to swing into a new routine. Unfortunately, summer vacation is over and it's time to head back to school. Instead of greeting the sunrise with a goodnight kiss, I am flipping off the damn alarm clock and cursing the audacity of the freaking thing to even peek into my much needed slumber. I am taking showers in a half vegetative state and sometime wash my hair twice because I'm dozing. It is a wonder that I can dress properly for work. I get my bounce back in my step an hour or so later. I can keep it going but I have been losing steam at lot earlier in the day. It won't take long before I am back to my 100% perkilicious self!

What Happened?

I guess chatting is losing its magical feeling and feeling more like a train wreck. I know people can be jerks but that is why there is an ignore feature. I guess I have a strong since of things being fair and it is really hard to see some people get to be total jerks because they know someone with power. I am pretty sure I can take a joke but this has just upset me beyond what I know. I look back on all those that warned me that this type of thing could happen and then I witnessed it myself. I watched people see something wrong and just laugh. How sad....and worst of all I let something so unreal as a site bring unsettling feelings to my very real world. I lay down tonight not at all my usual self...but a shell of what I once was...but only for a bit....this as everything does...will pass.

Nobody's Home

I found a really cool feature about the chat room. If you have your name registered, you can leave messages for other registered chatters when they are logged off or just ignoring you. There are few chatters that just say bye and poof they are gone. I wonder if they know we leave a trail of good nights and take cares in their dust trail. I always feel bad when I miss someone I wanted to say bye for now to but a very brilliant person suggested I use the PUB (public message board). I have made a point to try to leave at least one message there each time I am in chat. I like to use crazy titles for my posts. I figure the weirder the title the more interested you will be in the content. Happy PUBBING~

The Hater

The other day I encountered an interesting chatter. Apparently, I annoy people and this chatter wanted me to know exactly how much I annoyed him/her. What a revelation! Me? Annoying?

I have never considered myself someone who got on someone's nerves. At first I thought this chatter might be jealous of me, but I should be open to the fact that I can't please everyone and there are people that hate for very little reason. I guess I would have understood better if I had actually done something or even had spoken with this person before but when a complete stranger starts spouting hate. It takes you back a little.

I was actually looking for a good fight. I deal with a lot of mean girls and I was hoping to go toe to toe with this chatter but to my disappointment, it was a hate and ditch situation. Oh well, maybe next time!

Crazy Busy

I hate when real life interferes with the time I can spend with the cool people in chat and a certain chatter that always makes me smile.

I know that sounds very strange but I enjoy the time I can just relax and escape into a the chatting world. It doesn't matter what I am wearing.

I just wrap up in a warm blanket and type away in my bed. I guess the part I love the most is that I am away from my crazy roommates in a very private...only for me moment.

What I Do?

Today I was asked what I do. A simple replay is that I go to school. I am teacher so do not hold that against me. I will probably misspell most of the things I write because I totally suck at that subject (should take stock in spell-checkers). My vocabulary is very extensive but I can't spell half the things I can say so I am always having to find other smaller words to type in chat. I guess that is my biggest obstacle in communication.

I graduated from college about two years ago with a Bachelors of Science in Elementary Education. I love teaching all the subjects but science is my favorite. I started my masters program right after I graduated college and I am working on a degree in Curriculum and Instruction~Science Content. In other words, when I grow up I want to be a science teacher. Currently I am teaching middle school science but I want the degree to back it up.

What a Day!

I am a little bummed today. It has been a really exhausting day physically and emotionally.

I came to chat to relax and let some steam off but today hasn't been much fun. I feel like I am having to defend my writing a lot. Some of it is good but most is not. I guess I should not have shared my blogs with everyone. I just thought it would be a good way for people to understand who I am.

I guess I am realizing that it is more emotional than I ever imagined. I am not sure how I feel about putting the real me out there in the online world to be a target for criticism. I guess I am upset with myself most of all for feeling upset. I have always been taught that tears are a sign of weakness. I am hoping to find my smile soon.

Couples

I have decided that there is a certain chemistry between the regular chatters and the others.

I do not think I am a regular chatter but I would love to be apart of this world.

The regulars are always talking to each other and this constant flow chat banter is a kind of dialog that makes the room really move and become magical.

I am still trying to figure how people are connected. I know it can be dangerous to flirt with someone that has a girlfriend/boyfriend amongst the regular crowd. I have already been call a lot of names in my private messages. There have been warnings to stay away from so and so because he is taken. I really did not think I was trying to take anyone but I know I am friendly and maybe somehow I crossed a line.

It is not always easy to figure out which two are actually together. They could all be flirting. I hate to become between a couple because I am one who flirts a lot. I try to back off if I know two people are together. I wish people would tell me who I can and cannot flirt with. This way I would be sure not to step on any toes.

I do not know why I try so hard to be nice. I guess it is because I have seen how places like these have messed people up. I have to admit it would be nice to have an online boytoy to act silly with, to pretend to snuggle and get lost in private chat. Seems a little selfish because I am going to be here less often when work starts but it still seems really cool.

A Firm Grasp of the Topic

Sometimes it is fun the be the bad girl in chat and that can be hard errrrr difficult to do without sounding like a total skanky-hussy-pro-slut-streetwalken-ho-whore-tramp-stutpuppy! The use of sexual innuendos is key.

This is a hard topic to grasp for some especially if they are not firm with the English language. As a tool of humor, it stands erect in the English language. However, with a limited understanding and oral skills the intended meaning may be hard to wrap your hands around and a more well- rounded explaination will be needed to fill in the holes.

And full penetration of the subject requires that the chatter take a long, hard look at the words that might have a handful of meanings and thrust them into the chat converstation that the right time so that they may satisfy the other chatters.

This can be a rigorous process that requires a slow build-up of fluid phrases expertly inserted into the conversation and eventually incresing more and more until it flows quickly to the point of the intended sexual meaning comes to a climax. It is always more pleasing when no one sees it coming, often by entering the mind through the rear.

Of course, use this method in moderation so that conversation does not get to hard to follow and remember an important point for chatting is to let loose and have a little fun!

My Ideal Boyfriend List

I am convinced that the ideal man does not exist but I am willing to settle for a good chuck of qualities on my list.

1. He has to love his job~ I don't think I could stand listening to how much he hates going to work everyday.

2. He has to be the man~ I want someone to take out the garbage, care for the lawn, and squash the bugs and in return I want to be the one who cooks, cleans and takes care of the man. I get a lot of flack from this one from my girl friends but I like the idea of having one true boss.

3. He has to be sensible with his money~ I am into saving and investing. I have an excellent credit score and I would hope for the same from him. He doesn't have to make more than I do but his head should be in the game.

4. He has to make me laugh~ I admire wit more than anything. I treasure gut wrenching slide splitting almost peeing on the floor laughter.

5. He has to love to chat~ We should be able to talk about anything from politics to bed tricks and nothing should be off limits. I truly believe lack of communication is the reason divorce is so high. People will talk to strangers about what bothers them before a spouse.

6. He has to love his crazy family~ I may not agree with my family but I love them to death. I moved 1300 miles away from my entire family to go to school. I still call my mom 3-4 times a week. I think family is important but there is a line between living your own life and loving your family without it becoming living the life your family wants you to live. If I listened to my family, I would be married with 3.5 kids already! WOW...scary place.

7. He has to be active. I love watching and participating in sports. I love to to stay active and work out, especially running to keep in shape and I am looking for someone to keep up with me.

8. He has to adore putting his hands on me. He has to want to feel, explore, dominate, capture, caress, and relish my body as much as I do his behind closed doors and outside occasionally hold my hand, open a door, or remove a rebellious strand of hair without being asked. I think a strong physical relationship is important but if the other things are there this will come naturally so it is on of the last things on my list.

I think the first step to finding someone you want to spend the rest of your life with is knowing what you want. I have dated enough now to know the things that are important to me. I am not looking to fall in love right now...I am just working on my own personal goals and celebrating being single so do not try and fix me up.....lol

Chat Topics: Life Goals

Finding something to talk about can be the difference between having fun or being bored.

Sometimes just blurting out random things actually work but when in doubt go for the tried and true.

These might be a little boring but they might spark some sort of conversation.

Try a few life goal topics:


1.If you could travel anywhere, where would it be?
2. List the top 5 places you’d like to travel to.
3. What are you passionate about?
4. List the top 5 things you’d like to accomplish before you die.
5. Who is the most important person in the world to you?
6. What’s your dream job and why?
7. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? Do you have a plan?
8. If you were marooned on a desert island, what 3 things would you take?
9. Describe yourself using 5 words.
10. What’s the craziest thing you’ve done?
11. What’s the funniest thing you’ve done?
12. What are 3 things you’ve never done, but you would like to try?

Finding the Balance

The chat environment gives the user a lot of control, something that is difficult to have in the real world. I can decide how much of myself I want to share with someone and if a conversation gets too intense, I can just leave. I could never do that in the real world without making myself feel bad or uncomfortable. I guess, at times, I forget that there is a real person on the other side of the keyboard. How much of this is real and how much is just playing games? How much of a real relationship can you have in a not so real place? I am just left with questions but I am still searching for the balance in the world of chat.